Discussion I feel like I'm destined to die by suicide. I'm sure some of you can relate.

[BitterlyAlive]

I've felt like this for eight years, since I was a teenager. I already know what I want to do but I haven't gathered the means to do it because I still live with people. I couldn't do something like that to them.

It'll be so freeing when I can finally live on my own. Then I can finally do it. I'm "getting help" (therapy, medications, testing) because I'm expected to... But I truly feel like I can't be helped. I can't even be completely honest because they'll just throw me in a hospital.

I'm so tired of the pain, and I'm tired of being a burden and an annoyance to everyone.

 

[GiveUp]

Yeah, me too. Me too.

 

[gnomeboy17]

Yep. It won't be right now, probably not in a month. Perhaps within the year. But definitely at some point, I will die in control.

 

[Una Nancy]

I definitely relate

 

[idontwannadothisanym]

yes I hope I can soon...

 

[Soul]

I've known I'll eventually kill myself since I was a child. Hearing that offspring of suicides (like me) are apt to commit suicide felt like a confirmation, not news. And it's not related to depression; I'm simply ready to choose my own best-by date.

 

[Tomm58]

I relate 100%. I will also be committing suicide soon. Just waiting for this god damn virus to end so I can have some crazy drug filled nights. Can't wait till I leave. Every moment is suffocating isn't it? I feel like I'm breathing in water with dark cloud fogging up my brain. Anyways, I relate completely. Been trying to fix my health issues for nearly 12+ years. Nothing has worked. Killing myself is a sure way of stopping the pain. It's just a logical choice when no one understands the level of pain you endure and when there's no clear sign of getting better. Knowing there are other rational ppl that understand this hardship does lighten the burden. But it still sucks balls no?? It's all just a big joke.

 

[PrettyMoose]

I hope that I die by suicide. I'd hate it if I became too disabled to carry it out. Old age and natural death scare me more.

 

[William Barker]

I can relate. Life has only ever gets worse, never better

 

[itsamadworld]

I have been planning to die since I was a teen. Now, I work with the elderly in hellcare, I mean healthcare. For the past 9 years there, I've been faced with that reality old age equals in a cage...I cannot live with this.

 

[StillWaiting]

Can relate. Wonder what went wrong..

 

[DoodleBug]

I tend to passively-aggressively wrestle with my survival instinct. It's still somewhat there, but on impulse I tend to do shit that for some ungodly reason still didn't manage to end me, so yeah. I'm sure that I'll eventually leave this confusing dimension by my own hand.

 

[diyCTB]

I always felt special but never knew what was my purpose in life.
Didn't know who I wanted to become.
I am afraid CTB is what awaits me.
Don't see myself being old and living a full life.

 

[Notwinnernotawin]

Me too. The circumstances brought me to this, and there's no way out. My therapist thinks I'm not interested in ending my life anymore... Because if she knew, I'd be in a psych ward in no time.