I feel like Im at the end

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I am truly getting tired of living as it's just torture at this point and I want out. I think my best bet is SN since I already get propranolol and pain meds, as the only prescription missing is for meto which I can get out of my doctors just by saying Im nauseous from all the antibiotics Im taking. It's just pointless for me to stay alive as I am constantly in pain and always feel the urge to urinate which has driven me nuts in these past almost five years. I have tried everything including surgery and I haven't gotten anywhere so I think it's time to go. Can anyone give me some advice on how to take SN like the whole process, I'll look it up, but if anyone can reply with it here I'll appreciate it.