Stepheng7287
Faster We Run, And We Die Young
- Aug 29, 2020
- 144
I'm hoping to CTB the beginning of December. This could possibly be my last month on this planet. It's so fucking hard to fathom.
I've just no feelings left inside of me at this point. Being this close to dying is just fucking weird. I thought I'd be more scared or possibly even get a kick of life back into me to change my mind or something, but I have none of that. I don't feel anything anymore. The feeling of guilt is completely gone. All the hope is gone. I used to imagine what people's reactions would be when they find out I'm dead but I couldn't care less at this point. I think I'm finally at peace with dying.
I've just no feelings left inside of me at this point. Being this close to dying is just fucking weird. I thought I'd be more scared or possibly even get a kick of life back into me to change my mind or something, but I have none of that. I don't feel anything anymore. The feeling of guilt is completely gone. All the hope is gone. I used to imagine what people's reactions would be when they find out I'm dead but I couldn't care less at this point. I think I'm finally at peace with dying.