Venting I feel like i am not meant to be alive

[aeri]

since I was a little kid, even before I had depression, I always had intrusive thoughts about suicide. also always kinda thought of killing myself. that's so annoying

Idk why im this way but it truly is painful and im sad to be scared of killing myself. I know i want to, always wanted to, but im scared

 

[FuneralCry]

Our minds really do like to torture us. I have been thinking of wanting to die since a young age too. I think the problem is for me that I love the idea of not being alive yet thoughts of actually going through with it give me anxiety. I think because it can easily fail and requires courage. I wish you the best.

 

[WornOutLife]

I can kinda relate because I've been wanting to die since I was 12!

Now, I'm trying to live but I dunno until when.