I feel like I am being forced to watch my life fall apart.

[Tacohell]

Right now I am am about to get an F in a class that is about studying and reading strategies at my Community College. It was a short 8-week class that did not require a lot of time or effort to get done and at the moment I only have two classes. The final project is due at midnight tonight but so is my final draft of an essay for my english class so I think I'll just half-ass that and call it a night. It was so low effort and yet I could not bring myself to do it. I told myself that community college would be different, that I would be different and it seemed like it was true for awhile but it was not. I do not feel horrible about it at the moment and I think I have my therapist to thank for that because normally I would not be in a good place. I am so sick of starting things and knowing I am not going to be able to go through with them. At this rate I won't transfer to a university and will most likely drop out.

As for why I didn't do the work. I can't even tell you. I had a 4.0 last semester I thought I would really be on top of my work but I guess that is not the case.

 

[Toxic Positivity]

It sounds like a real setback. Time management is a perennial struggle, and as much as it feels like things are out of your control, maybe the answer is to realize that from now on, it is up to you. You are not powerless. We all make decisions about what is important to us and whether we will do the work we are supposed to do.

"I am so sick of starting things and knowing I am not going to be able to go through with them. "

This sounds like good realization about yourself. You've identified a pattern and you want it to stop. Let's say you fail the studying/reading strategies course. Is it a required course? What are the next steps, some kind of plan you can build so that you don't have to drop out?

I think it can also be important to reconnect with the reasons you enrolled into community college to begin with. Those reasons can ground us in the moment when things are hard and help us finish the work we committed to finishing. I'm sorry you are going through a hard time right now. I hope you can have some clarity and think about how you can avoid a similar situation next semester.

 

[natali4]

I'm going through something similar. I wish I could tell what would help, but I don't know the answer. But one thing I've learned is that there are better chances of accomplishing small tasks and goals than big ones.

 

[Astralyra333]

Right now I am am about to get an F in a class that is about studying and reading strategies at my Community College. It was a short 8-week class that did not require a lot of time or effort to get done and at the moment I only have two classes. The final project is due at midnight tonight but so is my final draft of an essay for my english class so I think I'll just half-ass that and call it a night. It was so low effort and yet I could not bring myself to do it. I told myself that community college would be different, that I would be different and it seemed like it was true for awhile but it was not. I do not feel horrible about it at the moment and I think I have my therapist to thank for that because normally I would not be in a good place. I am so sick of starting things and knowing I am not going to be able to go through with them. At this rate I won't transfer to a university and will most likely drop out.

As for why I didn't do the work. I can't even tell you. I had a 4.0 last semester I thought I would really be on top of my work but I guess that is not the case.

omgggg thank you for posting this i am going through the exact same thing and feel alot less alone now. dropped out of uni twice cause by the time second semester came by i would see a huge drop in my grades, moods efforts everything, i decided maybe 4 years is too long for me maybe ill find success in a smaller yearlong college course soo now im in a college course to be a nursing aide, and i got like 4.0 for the first half then got sick and admitted to a psych ward and since winter have been just struggling to get it done im about to graduate and for the last two weeks i been trying to kms because i thought it would just become another thing i would have to drop out of, i live alone and so thats not an option which really drove me to sewercide, today i opened the recovery threads for the first time because i woke up today and said no i can do it. im tired of mourning myself and letting my life fall apart and the first post i see is this so thanks again

omgggg thank you for posting this i am going through the exact same thing and feel alot less alone now. dropped out of uni twice cause by the time second semester came by i would see a huge drop in my grades, moods efforts everything, i decided maybe 4 years is too long for me maybe ill find success in a smaller yearlong college course soo now im in a college course to be a nursing aide, and i got like 4.0 for the first half then got sick and admitted to a psych ward and since winter have been just struggling to get it done im about to graduate and for the last two weeks i been trying to kms because i thought it would just become another thing i would have to drop out of, i live alone and so thats not an option which really drove me to sewercide, today i opened the recovery threads for the first time because i woke up today and said no i can do it. im tired of mourning myself and letting my life fall apart and the first post i see is this so thanks again

i feel like seasonal depression plays a part for me because its always by new years mid school year in the winter etc. where i see my drop, probably because of burn out.

 

[stellabelle]

Right now I am am about to get an F in a class that is about studying and reading strategies at my Community College. It was a short 8-week class that did not require a lot of time or effort to get done and at the moment I only have two classes. The final project is due at midnight tonight but so is my final draft of an essay for my english class so I think I'll just half-ass that and call it a night. It was so low effort and yet I could not bring myself to do it. I told myself that community college would be different, that I would be different and it seemed like it was true for awhile but it was not. I do not feel horrible about it at the moment and I think I have my therapist to thank for that because normally I would not be in a good place. I am so sick of starting things and knowing I am not going to be able to go through with them. At this rate I won't transfer to a university and will most likely drop out.

As for why I didn't do the work. I can't even tell you. I had a 4.0 last semester I thought I would really be on top of my work but I guess that is not the case.

It just means you have to retake the class, not a big deal. What's so bad, especially if you're familiar with the material and know what to expect this time around?

Not the end of the world.

I have done so many stupid things, watched my life crumble, frantically tried to put it back together so many times, crumbled more and more and more and more and more and more.

Don't worry about it.

 

[goofy]

Get Chegg and cheat.

College is a scam you need to scam it back.