Hey. First off, I'm sorry about your girl. Second off, tell me what things have you done other than doing janitor work. I'm sure that you've tried and done a lot more than this. You've signed applications left and right, you went to interviews here and there, and you already put effort in getting along with other people to befriend them.
I think there's more to life than having no friends, not going to college, and being left by a lover and there's more to death than just dying itself. I hope you can find more things that you can enjoy and through them, you can see how living a few years more doesn't have to be such a chore.
But if things do get worse, come back here and seek comfort before you catch that damn bus. It'd be an honor to be the last person you wave your hand to.
I'm 25 and jobless right now. My girlfriend died 6 months ago. I'm still here for a beautiful urn, for my mother to cave in first, and for my brother to get married off to his girlfriend first. I got my small reasons to stay. I hope you do too.