I'm such a coward I let my life get worse and worse at 19 and don't have the guts to just fucking kill myself. I wish I was never fucking born
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jodes2
Hello people ❤️
- Aug 28, 2022
- 7,736
You're still young, you have plenty of chances for life to improve. Sorry you're suffering 
have you thought about different methods? Method choice makes a big difference. Could you explain why you don't have the "guts" to kill yourself? I'm kind of glad, you're so young
have you thought about different methods? Method choice makes a big difference. Could you explain why you don't have the "guts" to kill yourself? I'm kind of glad, you're so young I just saw don't I'm a coward used to living a shit life and I'll always be that way. I doubt I'll ever have the courage to do anything worthwhile in my lifeYou're still young, you have plenty of chances for life to improve. Sorry you're suffering
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,687
Suicide really can be so difficult after all. It doesn't mean that you are cowardly, feeling like you are unable to go through with it. We live in a world that makes dying as hard as possible for us. If it was easier to leave behind all the suffering I would already be gone. I also wish that I never existed at all and I know that it's so dreadful being trapped in a life that you hate. I'm sorry that you are in this situation.
theboy
Illuminated
- Jul 15, 2022
- 3,257
SecretDissociation
Suicide enthusiast
- Sep 11, 2022
- 394
I feel the same. The longer I live the worse it gets and the more I regret not ctb-ing. But ig I break my own expectations every month or so
Tired_again
Member
- Sep 16, 2022
- 12
what kind are you taking. I took prozac a while ago and I ended up being on 40mg which looking back on it was way too high as I dont even recognize myself looking back on pictures and videos.
I just started taking bupropion a couple days ago. Not sure what to expect
TimetoGo!
Wizard
- Aug 30, 2022
- 641
Why didn't you recognise yourself? In a bad way you mean?
suicidalpushpop
Member
- Sep 14, 2022
- 80
onlyanimalsaregood
Unlovable 💔 Rest in peace CommitSudoku 🤍
- Mar 11, 2022
- 1,329
hamvil
Wizard
- Aug 29, 2022
- 650
Give it some time, you are still 19 and there are plenty of opportunities for change in the coming years, maybe also yours will arrive, maybe not, wait and see what happens. Try education if this avenue is interesting and practical for you (no idea about your country and economical conditions). Look for a job, pursue your hobbies, build meaningful friendships. Wait for love you never know when it will arrive. If all fails re-evaluate this in some years.
rationaltake
I'm rocking it - in another universe
- Sep 28, 2021
- 2,707
I so understand. I know my neighbour's cat will miss me. It's much harder when it's your own cat.
onlyanimalsaregood
Unlovable 💔 Rest in peace CommitSudoku 🤍
- Mar 11, 2022
- 1,329
In your age i was the same but where i live there kids in your age who do ctb mostly hanging .
locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 8,985
Then my all means don't try it because you'll probably screw it up and end up in a far worse condition than you are now.
Tired_again
Member
- Sep 16, 2022
- 12
I felt great at the time. But it was just an entirely different personality. Id have tons of energy, overly confident, talkative, a bit more social. Although much of what came out of could be seen as positive, looking back on it I view myself of having been an entirely different person. I wasn't me. I was taken control of by my meds. So yes in a bad way I didn't recognize myself. Maybe it just had been so long of being happy for an extended period of time that I dont understand what happiness could be like and looking back on myself being happy is abnormal to me.
