binkleshpoo
Member
- Jan 23, 2026
- 12
The anxiety of my choice has dissolved. I feel pretty okay now....It will only be an hour of discomfort and then I wont have to deal with all the horrible things about the world anymore. I'm too lazy to do anything like cleaning up my room or deleting files or whatever, but part of me wonders if I should anyway. It would give me something to do. My KN isn't here yet, it probably wont be for a while, but part of me wants to just take it the same day it gets here and get it over with.
The world is becoming something I highly dislike. I am someone I no longer recognize. I've stopped feeling fearful or anxious about what will happen to my family. They will have to keep going regardless, they have another child. He's an adult but it doesn't matter. He needs them. They will understand my choice. Or at least thats what I've convinced myself. It doesn't feel like something I need to worry about anymore.
Besides, once I am gone, I wont have anything to be worried about anymore. I believe in the afterlife so I'm just hoping there will be something better after this is all over.
I'm happy I have a way out.
There are things I wanted to do, hobbies I wanted to explore, but I don't think that would've saved me from this. It would've just been a distraction, no matter how nice. The world is too ruined, and so am I.
The world is becoming something I highly dislike. I am someone I no longer recognize. I've stopped feeling fearful or anxious about what will happen to my family. They will have to keep going regardless, they have another child. He's an adult but it doesn't matter. He needs them. They will understand my choice. Or at least thats what I've convinced myself. It doesn't feel like something I need to worry about anymore.
Besides, once I am gone, I wont have anything to be worried about anymore. I believe in the afterlife so I'm just hoping there will be something better after this is all over.
I'm happy I have a way out.
There are things I wanted to do, hobbies I wanted to explore, but I don't think that would've saved me from this. It would've just been a distraction, no matter how nice. The world is too ruined, and so am I.
