I feel bit bad

[Shiru]

My mom talks for anything but she's good mom for me but she came to clean my room and I don't want her to be cleaning now I got angry and I whispered "I wish you die now" she couldn't hear me that's the purpose of whispering and now I feel a bit bad because I don't want her to die now mostly cause she pays all here so yeah I feel bad and guilty for wishing that

 

[Loaf of bread]

No need to feel bad about it, sometimes emotions (especially anger) make one act silly. Happens sometimes, especially with spontaneous annoyances (eg cleaning room).

Rest assured, you did not seriously wish harm or do anything bad. You simply responded to sudden anger normally (not maliciously). Your post says you regret it, so you clearly dont mean what you whispered and as such shouldnt be ashamed. No need to be critical of yourself for that!

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sure you didn't mean it literally - sometimes we are so upset about someone else that wishing death to someone comes to our mind although we would never want to even do that.

 

[KKun]

Some emotions just surface a bit too easily, but if you didn't hurt her in any way, I think that bad thought is something you can let slip away.

That said though, is it a frequent thing? Either those emotions, or your mother doing things out of her own accord when you don't want her to?
If so, perhaps you should consider trying to discuss that with her. To ask more frequently if it's OK for her to do certain things, or enter spaces where you are at certain times, just so that it can avoid having your mood pushed negatively.
Figure it's not intentional from her part, so if you can come to that understanding...

As someone who has their parents living with him, and my own mother being someone who was always used to take care of the house at her discretion, she does not sit idle. And while I have to appreciate the weight that it takes off me, I also had to make her understand that she shouldn't take liberties to do everything she can to help me, because at times it just does -not- help... and it's difficult to not feel a bit annoyed after a while, when those decisions of hers throw things out of line for me.
So, help create the environment where you don't need to have those negative reactions. Might help take that bad feeling off your head too.

 

[Shiru]

No need to feel bad about it, sometimes emotions (especially anger) make one act silly. Happens sometimes, especially with spontaneous annoyances (eg cleaning room).

Rest assured, you did not seriously wish harm or do anything bad. You simply responded to sudden anger normally (not maliciously). Your post says you regret it, so you clearly dont mean what you whispered and as such shouldnt be ashamed. No need to be critical of yourself for that!

I'm sure you didn't mean it literally - sometimes we are so upset about someone else that wishing death to someone comes to our mind although we would never want to even do that.

Some emotions just surface a bit too easily, but if you didn't hurt her in any way, I think that bad thought is something you can let slip away.

That said though, is it a frequent thing? Either those emotions, or your mother doing things out of her own accord when you don't want her to?
If so, perhaps you should consider trying to discuss that with her. To ask more frequently if it's OK for her to do certain things, or enter spaces where you are at certain times, just so that it can avoid having your mood pushed negatively.
Figure it's not intentional from her part, so if you can come to that understanding...

As someone who has their parents living with him, and my own mother being someone who was always used to take care of the house at her discretion, she does not sit idle. And while I have to appreciate the weight that it takes off me, I also had to make her understand that she shouldn't take liberties to do everything she can to help me, because at times it just does -not- help... and it's difficult to not feel a bit annoyed after a while, when those decisions of hers throw things out of line for me.
So, help create the environment where you don't need to have those negative reactions. Might help take that bad feeling off your head too.

Thanks everyone I was praying last night that she comes alive to home because today she has dental appointments and has to take many buses so I was begging my words don't do any effect thanks for your words! As I am writing this I'm having a little crisis again it has nothing to do with my thread I'm not feeling well