I feel bad for not having many friends

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Thanks to constant abuse and trust issues, I find it very hard ot make friends. I just assume everyone will abuse me and hate me and still have suicide as a last minute back up in case things dont get better

I just feel bad for not doing much when deep down I wanted to. But I am always so afraid of being hurt sometimes I'd rather die than try

 

[Good4Nothing]

Me too. Though I'm not so much afraid of being hurt as I'm just such a weirdo that no one understands me. Plus I'm so chronically depressed, who needs a depressed person in their life?

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Me too. Though I'm not so much afraid of being hurt as I'm just such a weirdo that no one understands me. Plus I'm so chronically depressed, who needs a depressed person in their life?

I feel this. like "oh your depressed I dont want you around" I just feel bad for not putting in more effort and I feel like a failure. Like I dunno I wish I was a more energetic 22 year old

 

[massiveblackhole]

Don't feel bad. Making friends is hard. And harder if you're introverted/have a mental illness. Make friends with animals instead. They don't judge you.

 

[deadgirlahsatan]

Yea i agree with massivenblackhole. Making friends is so damn hard. I have major trust issues as well. I was bullied a lot. Makes me fear people. Also have social anxiety.
I have none irl. Just a few online. Making animal friends is easier for sure.i never had a hard time making animal friends.

 

[shy]

Making friends is hard, feeling bad/being ashamed of not having any makes it even harder. It's the same for me, I don't feel I can trust anyone. A shame really, there has to be some nice people, similar to the ones on here outside in the real world.

Like I dunno I wish I was a more energetic 22 year old

That line hits close to home; I'm always thinking the same thing. I'm pretty sure that's the mindset that makes me unable to make new friends in the first place. You're a really nice person, I think there are a lot of people who would love to be your friend.

 

[Valon]

Friends are overrated. I think I've given up on meeting new people. I already know I'll be disappointed. I have trouble relating with other people unless they're as suicidal as I am.

 

[Panna]

Friends arent worth the effort. In my experience I only have one good time with them since its the first time, and every time after its too stressful and painful. worrying about them being bored, not knowing what to say, constantly having them wanting to hang out. I know that im happier alone but my emotions wont accept that and it drives me nuts.

 

[flatearth]

making friends is hard, don't beat yourself up about it :(
if it makes you feel any better, you aren't alone. I feel like that a lot of the time too
p.s. your icon made me want to start watching erased! it is very good so far, thank you

 

[mapletree]

The cost/benefit of having any relationships besides the ones with my immediate family don't seem worth it. Anything beyond acquaintances seems to cause more pain than happiness in the long run. So I've stopped looking for relationships and am just hanging out I guess until I bite the dust

There are some things in this life that I have accepted that I cannot have. It's a mourning process. I've realized at this point I won't be able to really build serious relationships with people or a family. It sucks but it is what it is. It really is a process of grieving and acceptance, although not having any relationships with people makes me feel less invested in staying here in a metaphysical sense.

 

[Sk1n1M1n]

I feel that I have invested more in my onlime friends and people I have met through university than the people I know since I was at the special school up till I was 12.5.

 

[Xocoyotziin]

I can get drunk and talk to someone for six hours straight at a party but when it comes to anything after a first encounter, I don't even know what to do. I'm missing some key part of me that allows me to form friendship bonds and it sucks bad.

 

[Eren]

I'm so sorry, loneliness is horrible.

Why would they hate you? I think you are a good and kind person.

If you need to talk to someone, you can PM me.

 

[Red]

I've always gone by quality rather than quantity, unfortunately severely lacking in both since falling physically ill - it's easier to have friends when you're agreeable and don't have any real limits to what you can do or when you can nip out for a coffee or whatever... it soon bored them to play the kind and understanding friend and they quickly dropped away, resenting my "control" over when, where and how long we could meet (for), despite me not being able to control what my body does at any point in time lol I AM THE OVERLORD OF WELCHING OUT

 

[Kazeeemoo12]

I wonder what your ex friends think about your deatha and how they'd feel if they see this post

 

[ZRA]

I get it. I'm pretty good at making friends, but relationships entail so much NOISE and I just can't handle it . Still, though, I worry that - when I continually get worse - loneliness might be a hidden cause, and that in that respect I'm failing to help myself get better.

 

[tuto170]

I think its good not to have friends.
All my previous friends peer pressured into drinking alcohol and doing drugs

 

[darkcirclesunder]

I really dont think friends exist after 20 or 21. Most people are focused on their SO or immediate family members after 21 and dont really have much room for anyone else. I try not to feel bad about it, because your true "friends" are the ones you made in middle school and high school.