I feel at peace having made the decision to CTB

[TransTaxEvader]

Im no longer burdened by the issues of my life. I don't have to worry about paying rent, paying utilities, working, finding a partner, etc.

I can just live and be free. It's honestly nice.

I am gonna make one banger ass book shelf next week though!!

and that's kinda gonna be my final project.

im ready, I've made my peace, finished my note, and im in the process of giving things away to my friends and family.

the first time in life im not scared and depressed.

 

[encore]

i relate a lot. paradoxically, making the decision to ctb and knowing this is how my life will end made me enjoy and appreciate what i have left way more. i don't understand how anyone can feel good just waiting around till something takes them out... at least most of us here know exactly how and when life will end, which is not nearly as anxiety inducing.

 

[Michelstaedter]

I practice running, and I imagine that the day I have my CTB ready, it will be similar to when I ran a lot, I feel agitated, exhausted, without the desire to run more, but I achieved my goal... Now to rest.

 

[Marbas]

That's exactly how I feel about it. Once I've finally CTB it's no more worrying about money, working awful job, dealing with rude people, health issues, trying to find love etc. It's very freeing to think about not having to deal with life anymore. Best of luck on your final project.

 

[FuneralCry]

I imagine it must be a relief to feel at peace, I wish you the best.

 

[ForeverCaHa]

Partly at peace, but growing impatient. I've got a date set that I cannot see myself veering away from. It's just over three weeks away, but when I look at the calendar it looks so far away. I believe on the day I'll feel more peace, but until then I'm struggling with the desperation to be done with it.

 

[TransTaxEvader]

I imagine it must be a relief to feel at peace, I wish you the best.

thank you

 

[areyousafe??]

I relate. I felt a sense of relief when I finally made up my mind to ctb, like a burden had been lifted off my shoulders. I felt so much happier, and at peace with my decision.

 

[heavysoul]

I sometimes wonder whether if human lifespans were shorter, like 30 years or something, if people would feel like this, more free. And if we would set up society differently and center our lives differently because they're so short and we would just want to experience as much pleasure as possible in that time. But maybe not, maybe things would be exactly the same and not any more bearable and humans are stupid dumb creatures and fail to see the value in making the most of life