Didnt wash my hair
forced myself to go outside, only to feel too anxious to buy things I needed
DIdnt cook and ordered out
ate ice cream dn other junk food
havent exercised since last night
Still didnt write those suicide notes
I hate myself
I rarely wash my hair
If other people wouldn't think something was up I wouldn't go outside
there's nothing wrong with not cooking
I eat extremely unhealthily (think mr.noodles and monster energy)
I don't exercise
you could write the notes anytime you want I wrote the notes a week before I was going to ctb but I didn't and now they're just sitting on my computer
I still hate myself
I can relate. For the past 4 days, I have been staying in bed all day and bingeing like crazy on junk food. (Today I even added alcohol to that...I can't even imagine what the calorie count is between the food and the alcohol...) I have been eating well past the point of fullness because I just want to escape my life and get lost in the taste of the food and the thrill of the excess.
I have not even showered since last Thursday night. I know that is gross but I just cannot bring myself to move. I'm like a whale, just lying in the middle of the bed, not moving...
there has been a time once where I didn't shower for at least a month