Story I failed partial hanging several weeks ago

[holymouse]

Hello I'm not used to write in english and my expression might be awkward.
I had place to tie ligature in my room (not high to commit full hanging)and I used 8mm rope
As you can see in my drawing I used upper body weight to tighten the rope.
And I stuffed socks between rope and my neck. I though socks on either side of the thyroid I thought it could help block carotid artery
When I put my head in noose and put my weight, I couldn't breath well
It's like my airway became very narrow
anyway I felt uncomfortable and a few seconds later it doesn't seem I could black out :(
my vision was clear and carotid artery doesn't seem to block
so I gave up and went to bed and sleep

it have been 3 weeks since my suicide attempt
my neck hurts a little :(
I'm seeking for another hanging method :(

 

[Lady black]

And full suspension from a tree or something outside?

 

[holymouse]

And full suspension from a tree or something outside?

I will place noose upper than before
its scary

 

[Lady black]

So maybe it is not the right method for you?

 

[holymouse]

So maybe it is not the right method for you?

i haven't found proper place outside..

 

[Lady black]

No tree or a playground?

 

[holymouse]

No tree or a playground?

yes, there is playground and trees but it has cctv around

 

[Lady black]

Ooh that's not good. And a forest?

 

[holymouse]

Ooh that's not good. And a forest?

There is a forest behind the apartment. If I hang myself in the forest, I'll have to go to the forest at night, but it's hard to leave the house without my parents knowing, and the night forest is scary.

 

[Lady black]

Oh that´s not good, but at home with your parents is a risk

 

[holymouse]

Oh that´s not good, but at home with your parents is a risk

I have my room and it is separated with my parent's room
I lock the door everytime when I go to bed
anyway I still dont understand why I failed my suicide attempt...
do you have any idea?

 

[Lady black]

It seemed like you blocked the airway not the arteries

 

[holymouse]

It seemed like you blocked the airway not the arteries

It's not easy to strangle properly.
I didn't want to do full hanging :(
(Although my feet touch the ground, I can call it full hanging because i use my entire weight.)

 

[Lady black]

I understand, but at really full suspension your carotid will be blocked

 

[holymouse]

I understand, but at really full suspension your carotid will be blocked

I'm searching for full suspension failure on this forum and I found someone hang on tree for 30 seconds before the rope break thats terrible

Grammar mistakes may occur.

 

[Lady black]

Ok, if you use a too thin ligature that could happen

 

[holymouse]

Ok, if you use a too thin ligature that could happen

okay I decided to buy more thick rope

 

[Lady black]

Which rope will you buy?

 

[holymouse]

Which rope will you buy?

this one
I just searched the Internet and found it.

The hypothesis of why I failed, I think the 8mm rope is round, so my neck is not properly tightened.
This rope is round, too, so I don't know if it can tighten my neck.

 

[Lady black]

For full suspension I would not use less than 10mm

 

[holymouse]

For full suspension I would not use less than 10mm

why do you think so?

 

[Lady black]

Cause otherwhise it bites deep into the neck. 10-12-14 (it depends on your weight) are better

 

[holymouse]

Cause otherwhise it bites deep into the neck. 10-12-14 (it depends on your weight) are better

ahh okay thanks

 

[Lady black]

And find a good point to fix the rope