I failed again today

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Said to myself "today you will work out and be healthy. No more excuses time to hold yourself accountable"
Instead I talked to my therapist, then talked to my abusive aunt, and then just ate some oatmeal. The day is nearly gone and I did nothing like a fat pig
I hate myself

 

[IsThisTheEnd?]

Probably alot of people had a similar day, do 10 of anything before bed, 10 sit ups or just 10 face stretches, 10 finger stretches xxx

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

You won't fail next time! Hope you can work out

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Like I am supposed to go out somewhere tomorrow and dont even want o go because im a fat bitch and nobody should see me

I cant do anything right I might just die fat I dont know

 

[IsThisTheEnd?]

first remember no-one is perfect xxx

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

How much do you weigh? If you don't mind me asking.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

first remember no-one is perfect xxx

I mean I guess. I just know I have to do things with my life an di am just wasting my stupid self away. Look at me, I could have already gone for a jog by now

I just want to shut myself out so nobody can see my fat body and judge me for how ugly I look. Im a failure

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Perfection doesn't exist. You should accept your body and exercise to be fit and healthy if you can.

 

[IsThisTheEnd?]

I don't know sweetie but I have an exercise bike I haven't used for weeks, what about if we do a deal aill go on my exercise bike tomorrow if you do a exercise of your choice tomorrow ?

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

I don't know sweetie but I have an exercise bike I haven't used for weeks, what about if we do a deal aill go on my exercise bike tomorrow if you do a exercise of your choice tomorrow ?

I have a bike too. But I think I'll do a bit of fasting and some light work out instead maybe

 

[IsThisTheEnd?]

Cool, I have to get on my bike or it's not worth having.
take care

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Relatable experience. I can't even trust myself telling myself I'll do anything because I'm always lying to myself.