I envy an employee who was shot to death in a robbery today.

[GoldLeafIndigo]

So one of the nurses at work read that there had been a robbery in one of our stores out of state. An employee was killed by gunshots by the robber. The other nurse thought it was so horrible...I would never EVER admit this outside of here, or maybe reddit, but I'm sooo envious. Why can't I just randomly be shot dead instantly????

Yeah, i know life is unfair. The ones who want to be shot to death and won't be missed live, while those who want to live and are missed by a lot of people get the bullet. It is what it is.

 

[FuneralCry]

Even know I would not like to die in that particular way, I do envy those who are free from this world as they cannot suffer anymore and are at peace. Your feelings are understandable. More than anything I wish I never existed in the first place.

 

[GoldLeafIndigo]

Even know I would not like to die in that particular way, I do envy those who are free from this world as they cannot suffer anymore and are at peace. Your feelings are understandable. More than anything I wish I never existed in the first place.

I wouldn't mind dying that way if it were instant, I think. I'd rather go that way than alzheimers, or another form of dementia, or other long suffering. I'm older and low income, and while I will continually try to better my mental health and education/income, I am tired of my life, and have been since my teens. Thanks for understanding.

 

[Gsvko]

I used to fantasise about throwing myself in front of someone about to be shot. They'd think I'm a hero hah

 

[Smart No More]

It's a scary thought to die violently. Makes certain ctb methods impossible for some. Myself included..... But to die at the hands of another by gunshot wound seems quite acceptable. Takes the choice out of our hands and that in itself is a calming thought. It probably wouldn't be nice but compared to the suffering some of us are experiencing and the time it would take to be over helps me understand where you're coming from with this. I was saying to a loved one recently that I'd swap my current health problem and the ongoing suffering for a leathal cancer or even a curable one. At least then there would be an end in sight. I'm going through something I imagine is comparable to that anyway so potentially being cured or dying would kind of be a bonus. Long term suffering is horrendous.

 

[sad_gurl_thoughts]

I understand this feeling. Though usually I imagine myself jumping off of something tall.

A former beauty queen jumped off a building in New York last week, and I know it's tragic, her family must be devastated...but I'm so envious that she ended it. I've been thinking about it a lot.

 

[Smart No More]

I understand this feeling. Though usually I imagine myself jumping off of something tall.

A former beauty queen jumped off a building in New York last week, and I know it's tragic, her family must be devastated...but I'm so envious that she ended it. I've been thinking about it a lot.

A twitch streamer killed herself the other day too. I can't quite remember her name. Kika or something like that. She was only 21. Not sure how she did it.

I just did a quick search and found her. I picked the first site link that showed up so I'm sure there are better ones around. https://www.invenglobal.com/articles/15937/twitch-streamer-k1ka-passes-away-at-21

 

[Foresight]

That's an awful fate imo. I use to fear dying in an environment as miserable as your workplace.

 

[Grav]

There was a shooting around my area yesterday and I was thinking the same thing. Then it went into if someone broke into my home and threatened to shoot me, I'd have to say "really?" Kind of like a horror movie where the bad guy home invader realizes he hit a haunted house.

 

[Capsicum_Corral]

Why can't I just randomly be shot dead instantly????

Because most people who get shot live.

But the bullets do various degrees of damage to your body. Perhaps it takes out your spine and now you'll never walk again. Or you may need to wear a shit bag with a tube draining your bowels. There are a number of pretty unpleasant results that can happen from being shot. It's not really recommended.

 

[GoldLeafIndigo]

That's an awful fate imo. I use to fear dying in an environment as miserable as your workplace.

My workplace is really quite good, *Now*. I enjoy my coworkers, the manager is chill, I can honestly say that after having jobs for the last....35 years? This is one of the very few pleasant, reasonable, non toxic ones. I've had jobs where I truly felt like I was in hell, and all the trauma I'd ignored since childhood came back to bite me in the ass.

This is retail, with a medical clinic in the store. Other retail places have shootings, and while it's pretty much not likely to happen, I guess there's a possibility. There is *not* a high end jewelry section here, so that makes it a bit safer. The employee got killed in a store with jewelry.

Because most people who get shot live.

But the bullets do various degrees of damage to your body. Perhaps it takes out your spine and now you'll never walk again. Or you may need to wear a shit bag with a tube draining your bowels. There are a number of pretty unpleasant results that can happen from being shot. It's not really recommended.

Oh, I know. This may sound weird, but I promise, it's true: when I was 4 years old, I decided there were things worse than dying. The thought made such a strong impression on me, I've never forgotten.

I only would want to be shot if I could die instantly. I've had to care for patients with colostomy bags and those who were unable to walk, including because of brain damage. There is just so much suffering that the average superficial basic person does not want to confront. Which is why I keep these sorts of thoughts here or on reddit.

I used to fantasise about throwing myself in front of someone about to be shot. They'd think I'm a hero hah

That's probably gone through my mind at least once. But I would be afraid of being paralyzed, or having permanent messed-up gut problems. So wouldn't do that!

 

[LADY007]

Because most people who get shot live.

But the bullets do various degrees of damage to your body. Perhaps it takes out your spine and now you'll never walk again. Or you may need to wear a shit bag with a tube draining your bowels. There are a number of pretty unpleasant results that can happen from being shot. It's not really recommended.

Your correct. Or you end up with part of your face blown off.

 

[Interloper]

Did they actually say he was instantly dead? He could have been drowning in his own blood too.

Your correct. Or you end up with part of your face blown off.

Yup, if you're not gonna aim correctly you'd want to make sure you're using a big caliber at least.

 

[GoldLeafIndigo]

AntiquatedHorror: I didn't read the article, but probably not instantly dead. How often does that even happen with gunshot wounds? I was just envious of the "dead" part, and imagining that if I *could* be instantly dead, that would be good. I wouldn't want any of the above horrific possibilities. Don't want to suffer. Had enough pain in my life.

 

[GentleJerk]

As someone with the burden of having to contemplate taking my own life, I can understand the desire to be killed in a quick way, thus eliminating the responsibility and difficulty of having to make that decision myself. It seems you are more envious of the 'dead' part than the actual getting shot part, so honestly this is completely understandable to me. I feel that way myself sometimes.

When someone envies death so much that they wish for a terminal illness, like cancer, maybe because that would mean they are definitely going to die at some relatively foreseeable point? This I will never understand. They must not realise that the suffering they would experience in that state would be far greater than the suffering they currently experience. But what you are saying, I do understand.

 

[GoldLeafIndigo]

As someone with the burden of having to contemplate taking my own life, I can understand the desire to be killed in a quick way, thus eliminating the responsibility and difficulty of having to make that decision myself. It seems you are more envious of the 'dead' part than the actual getting shot part, so honestly this is completely understandable to me. I feel that way myself sometimes.

When someone envies death so much that they wish for a terminal illness, like cancer, maybe because that would mean they are definitely going to die at some relatively foreseeable point? This I will never understand. They must not realise that the suffering they would experience in that state would be far greater than the suffering they currently experience. But what you are saying, I do understand.

I honestly don't think they are actually understanding the suffering they would have to go through. I've had those kinds of thoughts myself, when I'm really frustrated and depressed with my life, and just not thinking through rationally.