Venting I dream of ending myself with someone else.

[VikingWinger]

My biggest desire is to die a beautiful death by my own hands. Well, as beautiful as it can get. You know what I mean. But what else would be beautiful to me is doing it with someone else. To connect to someone that's also suicidal, that also just wants all the troubles in this life we didn't choose to get to come to an end. Someone to share this final, intimate moment. The fears that comes with it. The thoughts. I have good friends that know I'm suicidal and have a death wish, and they can comfort and do what good friends do, but they don't feel the same way. I love them and wouldn't wish them to for anything in the world, but they're just not suicidal. I want to end it with someone who's been in my shoes when it comes to this.

And I'm grateful I found this forum, with all you guys, I've only been here for two days or so, but its been remarkably good to my feeling of being alone in this. Cheers to us. Love from the Viking.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Where are you from?

 

[VikingWinger]

Where are you from?

I'm from Norway. :-)

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

My biggest desire is to die a beautiful death by my own hands. Well, as beautiful as it can get. You know what I mean. But what else would be beautiful to me is doing it with someone else. To connect to someone that's also suicidal, that also just wants all the troubles in this life we didn't choose to get to come to an end. Someone to share this final, intimate moment. The fears that comes with it. The thoughts. I have good friends that know I'm suicidal and have a death wish, and they can comfort and do what good friends do, but they don't feel the same way. I love them and wouldn't wish them to for anything in the world, but they're just not suicidal. I want to end it with someone who's been in my shoes when it comes to this.

And I'm grateful I found this forum, with all you guys, I've only been here for two days or so, but its been remarkably good to my feeling of being alone in this. Cheers to us. Love from the Viking.

For years I felt the same way. And I kept finding, on the Dark Web & through Google Groups, people I'd get along with great for months and then finally we'd agree to meet. Things went south. Every. Single. Time. The last time cost me a small fortune. What always shocks me about the people I meet who're looking for partners is meeting them then they tell you how they're really looking for gender-X or age-Y or... I mean, really?! You're looking for a particular kind of human to sit in a room and die with??? I can't wrap my head around that one. Maybe they're really looking for someone to hook up with? 90% of the people I've met online looking for partners actually specify gender/age. Too much drama for me. Now it'll be just me and a sexy shotgun.

 

[Cookiedough8956]

For years I felt the same way. And I kept finding, on the Dark Web & through Google Groups, people I'd get along with great for months and then finally we'd agree to meet. Things went south. Every. Single. Time. The last time cost me a small fortune. What always shocks me about the people I meet who're looking for partners is meeting them then they tell you how they're really looking for gender-X or age-Y or... I mean, really?! You're looking for a particular kind of human to sit in a room and die with??? I can't wrap my head around that one. Maybe they're really looking for someone to hook up with? 90% of the people I've met online looking for partners actually specify gender/age. Too much drama for me. Now it'll be just me an a sexy shotgun.

Wow im so sorry to hear that it never went out the way u wanted..
I know how that feels.
Eveything every plan evey friendship has gone sour for me
Its like what's the damn point anymore!?
Ill just fucking do it alone. No drama, no sexual favors, nothing

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Eveything every plan evey friendship has gone sour for me
Its like what's the damn point anymore!?
Ill just fucking do it alone. No drama, no sexual favors, nothing

This. Exactly.

 

[reginafilangie]

Too much drama for me. Now it'll be just me an a sexy shotgun.

A sexy shotgun for 2? I fear the only way that I will be able to actually ctb is with someone else. Someone to reassure me that I/we won't fail. Sigh.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I'm from Norway. :-)

Nice I am from Denmark, what is your method?

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

A sexy shotgun for 2? I fear the only way that I will be able to actually ctb is with someone else. Someone to reassure me that I/we won't fail. Sigh.

I understand your feeling.

 

[Boonks]

Hah. Partners are a BULLSHIT fantasy.

 

[No life]

I want to die with someone else too but like the other user said u get ure hopes up and then get let down. I'm from the uk and need to end it soon so if there are any genuine people here.

 

[Redrock]

I'm alone now and I'll be alone when I die

 

[No life]

Otto I can't find your profile to reply do u want to ctb with someone

 

[Otto]

I really don't want to die alone,I know it's asking a lot but there must be someone else who feels the same way.

 

[No life]

I really don't want to die alone,I know it's asking a lot but there must be someone else who feels the same way.

Otto I want to die with someone and if ure serious we can help each other

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I understand your feeling of wanting someone to be there to end it with but I think for me personally I want to do it alone.
I wish you the best at finding someone to CTB with. I hope you both find peace.

 

[wanttodie]

Otto I want to die with someone and if ure serious we can help each other

me to I really don't want to die alone,I know it's asking a lot but there must be someone else who feels the same way

 

[No life]

me to I really don't want to die alone,I know it's asking a lot but there must be someone else who feels the same way

I just don't understand how to pm people

 

[Nanami]

Feel free to discuss the topic of partners, however please keep the actual partner finding-part to either the Partners Megathread and/or PMs.

 

[VikingWinger]

me to I really don't want to die alone,I know it's asking a lot but there must be someone else who feels the same way

I'm exactly the same.

 

[Psilo]

I'm fantasizing about someone else ending me.

 

[Bittersweet]

A sexy shotgun for 2? I fear the only way that I will be able to actually ctb is with someone else. Someone to reassure me that I/we won't fail. Sigh.

Hey pm me if you'd like. Im looking to head out soon

 

[limelight]

Føler deg!

 

[VikingWinger]

Føler deg!

Får se hva som skjer videre. Lykke til. :)

 

[detached]

Hi. Um, I know its a while since you posted this, but if you really need a buddy to ctb with, I'm available. Well, as long as we live somewhat close to each other. I don't know what you have been going through so I can't tell if I've "been in your shoes" but I'm suicidal too, which might be really obvious.
If you're still down to ctb with someone else, feel free to message me.

do you have any rules with whom you'd want to ctb with?

 

[Empty Smile]

Now it'll be just me and a sexy shotgun.

I had a sexy shotgun once. Sadly I had to let her go at the time. She was really the love of my life and I miss her everyday.

But hey, 300 bucks is 300 bucks.

 

[SadGirl]

My biggest desire is to die a beautiful death by my own hands. Well, as beautiful as it can get. You know what I mean. But what else would be beautiful to me is doing it with someone else. To connect to someone that's also suicidal, that also just wants all the troubles in this life we didn't choose to get to come to an end. Someone to share this final, intimate moment. The fears that comes with it. The thoughts. I have good friends that know I'm suicidal and have a death wish, and they can comfort and do what good friends do, but they don't feel the same way. I love them and wouldn't wish them to for anything in the world, but they're just not suicidal. I want to end it with someone who's been in my shoes when it comes to this.

And I'm grateful I found this forum, with all you guys, I've only been here for two days or so, but its been remarkably good to my feeling of being alone in this. Cheers to us. Love from the Viking.

This forum makes people like us feel at home and is welcome.

 

[editredit22]

A sexy shotgun for 2? I fear the only way that I will be able to actually ctb is with someone else. Someone to reassure me that I/we won't fail. Sigh.

For 3 pls.. shotgun would be the dream.

 

[Onomotopoeia]

For years I felt the same way. And I kept finding, on the Dark Web & through Google Groups, people I'd get along with great for months and then finally we'd agree to meet. Things went south. Every. Single. Time. The last time cost me a small fortune. What always shocks me about the people I meet who're looking for partners is meeting them then they tell you how they're really looking for gender-X or age-Y or... I mean, really?! You're looking for a particular kind of human to sit in a room and die with??? I can't wrap my head around that one. Maybe they're really looking for someone to hook up with? 90% of the people I've met online looking for partners actually specify gender/age. Too much drama for me. Now it'll be just me and a sexy shotgun.

I bet those looking for a hookup does happen, but surely some are serious, i would think. The idea that they are looking for someone of a certain gender and age does not surprise me at all though. If you are looking for a partner I imagine it would be to share some type of experience with that person before you go, otherwise surely you would do it alone?

Age is a big one a teen is a no go for an adult for obvious reasons, and the mentality of someone in their 20's and 30's is vastly different etc. So based on your statement "looking for particular kind of human to sit in a room and die with" I have to ask, why would you want a partner then?

I Realize you said you will go solo now but I am curious as to your reason, since to me i cant seem to wrap my head around why else you would even attempt to find a partner?