storeboughtisfine
trying my best
- May 1, 2023
- 58
I want to want to live so badly. I need to get out of this hole. I need people to talk to about these things because I can't burden my friends or family with this. I just can't. It hurts.
God is it ever. I get moments of peace every now and then, but everything is just so difficult.Hell is this ever relatable.
I'm so sorry you're having a rough time. Wanting to live, but feeling unable to is a different kind of hell.
Thank you so much for your kind words. I'm just at the end of my rope. I'm so tired. I'm so, so, so tired.I love your profile picture, haha.
If you want to live, you deserve to live. I am sorry that things are so bad that they're impeding on that will to live, so much so that you're on a forum like this. I hope that things get better, that you find something to live for. Sometimes we want to live desperately and just can't find anything to cling to, so opting out of living seems like the only thing. I believe you can get better and get out of the hole, I really do.
I want to encourage you to reach out to your friends and family anyway, if you can. I can relate to feeling like a burden or a killjoy. But they care for and love you, so I would believe that they naturally would want to help you in any way that they can, if they can. Even if that means they can only hear you out. A lot of people on here will hear you out, but nothing can beat a loving and caring network of people who can be around you and support you in person imo. And maybe, in one of those hard conversations with a loved one, you can find the spark you need to keep living.
I understand, and I wish I could do something to help. But I do believe in you, and I hope that you will reach out to one of your friends. I'm a ghost floating around on the internet, but if you can't bring it up to friends and family and ever find yourself in dire need to talk to someone, I'm a message away. I hope that tomorrow is a better day.I'm just at the end of my rope. I'm so tired. I'm so, so, so tired.