Venting I don't want to feel disabled I'd rather ctb anyone relatable?

[DoNotLet2]

hello
another short vent
Is it weird that I don't want to be in therapy because I don't want to feel like something is wrong with me? I don't want to have limitations that therapy would pose on me. I don't want to be that disabled person. I would rather go on hurting. I don't want to be the low worth person. Anyone feels the same?

 

[disconnection]

I can relate to wanting to avoid problems by choosing not to confront them. But I'm not sure whether you mean that or that you refuse to be labelled as disabled full stop? Because that I can really relate to. I'm a firm believer in the social model of disability and hate the way 'mental health services' insist on pushing the medical model. We live in a sick society. Most of what people occupy themselves with is mindless. I have a fair bit of pride that I can't adapt. Yes, I'd rather hurt...

Personally, I'm not convinced by a lot of therapy either, which makes me reluctant to try any more.

 

[Cioran]

hello
another short vent
Is it weird that I don't want to be in therapy because I don't want to feel like something is wrong with me? I don't want to have limitations that therapy would pose on me. I don't want to be that disabled person. I would rather go on hurting. I don't want to be the low worth person. Anyone feels the same?

Therapy as in with a psychologist? I understand. It might feel stigmatised. But in reality even "normal" people go to therapy. My teacher has disclosed to me that they have, and I would have never guessed. It had to do with a breakup. I suppose many people refuse therapy for the same reason.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Relatable tbh. I hate the idea of recovery because I hate the idea of my suicidal thoughts creeping out into my life. I guess they already are effecting me a lot since I barely want to do anything anymore, but I can tell myself now that it will be fine and I'll just get over it eventually. Therapy feels like admitting that it isn't going to go away easily and that it's going to make my life way harder.

 

[Fragile]

hello
another short vent
Is it weird that I don't want to be in therapy because I don't want to feel like something is wrong with me? I don't want to have limitations that therapy would pose on me. I don't want to be that disabled person. I would rather go on hurting. I don't want to be the low worth person. Anyone feels the same?

I can relate, probably not psychologically since my issues are very noticeable, but I've been procrastinating on going to a geneticist and other specialists that can accurately diagnose what's wrong with my body, and then tell me how bad it is.

I feel like the moment that I know the truth, and is a truth that I don't like that would be it for me. but I'm still going to do it sooner or later because I can't live without knowing the truth.

 

[Meditation guide]

I've tried therapy with a psychologist, a psychiatrist and a few social workers and was made much much worse for it. Watch out for mental health professionals. Do not trust them. That's what I came away with.

No reason to feel "disabled" by it. But the idea they help at least in my case couldn't be farther from the truth. There was always a relationship there even if it's just a professional one, and you can't help feeling inferior in that relationship. They are the all knowing ones and you are the sick one, and it makes you feel worse. I hope you see what I mean.

It would have been best if someone had told me I wasn't "sick" and was normal and the family dynamics I was raised in had a negative affect. That's probably the real problem for lots of people but no one tells you that. So you have a way of relating to others where you are without boundaries and don't know to get away from toxic people.

I know there are a lot of people with real mental health issues so this may not apply to lots of people but in my case that was my experience, and it was really destructive to my well being.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Don't be ashamed of telling others that you're going to therapy. Everyone has troubles in life. And you are trying to solve them witj a therapyst. There's nothing wrong about that. Going to therapy doesn't make you disabled. I wish you the best in life or in whatever you decide to do.

 

[disconnection]

I've tried therapy with a psychologist, a psychiatrist and a few social workers and was made much much worse for it. Watch out for mental health professionals. Do not trust them. That's what I came away with.

No reason to feel "disabled" by it. But the idea they help at least in my case couldn't be farther from the truth. There was always a relationship there even if it's just a professional one, and you can't help feeling inferior in that relationship. They are the all knowing ones and you are the sick one, and it makes you feel worse. I hope you see what I mean.

It would have been best if someone had told me I wasn't "sick" and was normal and the family dynamics I was raised in had a negative affect.

It's generally acknowledged as being a 'power imbalance' within psychology circles. They're meant to get all 'reflective' about it haha. But yeah, I think the 'expert' positioning is massively overrated. Therapy boils down to a relationship and a few tools you can learn to apply to your life. I prefer the 'service user expert' position found in peer relationships - we know our own shit best!!

 

[Cioran]

Relatable tbh. I hate the idea of recovery because I hate the idea of my suicidal thoughts creeping out into my life. I guess they already are effecting me a lot since I barely want to do anything anymore, but I can tell myself now that it will be fine and I'll just get over it eventually. Therapy feels like admitting that it isn't going to go away easily and that it's going to make my life way harder.

You don't have to do therapy with another person. You can "talk" to yourself and analyse your own thoughts and feelings. I don't know if it can apply

I've tried therapy with a psychologist, a psychiatrist and a few social workers and was made much much worse for it. Watch out for mental health professionals. Do not trust them. That's what I came away with.

No reason to feel "disabled" by it. But the idea they help at least in my case couldn't be farther from the truth. There was always a relationship there even if it's just a professional one, and you can't help feeling inferior in that relationship. They are the all knowing ones and you are the sick one, and it makes you feel worse. I hope you see what I mean.

It would have been best if someone had told me I wasn't "sick" and was normal and the family dynamics I was raised in had a negative affect. That's probably the real problem for lots of people but no one tells you that. So you have a way of relating to others where you are without boundaries and don't know to get away from toxic people.

Yes. Much like going to the regular doctor. You don't know who will help you and how. It may very well be for the worse. Though, that's not to say that this is always the case. It's a gamble. That's why it could be better to "do therapy" with yourself.

 

[Meditation guide]

That's why it could be better to "do therapy" with yourself.

I've been helped with my mental health issues by watching videos about narcissists on youtube and realizing I was raised by two of them. I simply didn't know to stay away from emotionally abusive people.

 

[DoNotLet2]

I can relate to wanting to avoid problems by choosing not to confront them. But I'm not sure whether you mean that or that you refuse to be labelled as disabled full stop? Because that I can really relate to. I'm a firm believer in the social model of disability and hate the way 'mental health services' insist on pushing the medical model. We live in a sick society. Most of what people occupy themselves with is mindless. I have a fair bit of pride that I can't adapt. Yes, I'd rather hurt...

Yup. As long as I'm not diagnosed and "cured" I'm fine. It doesn't matter that I'm hardly keeping up. I'm not getting cured so I'm fine.

Therapy as in with a psychologist? I understand. It might feel stigmatised. But in reality even "normal" people go to therapy. My teacher has disclosed to me that they have, and I would have never guessed. It had to do with a breakup. I suppose many people refuse therapy for the same reason.

Don't be ashamed of telling others that you're going to therapy. Everyone has troubles in life. And you are trying to solve them witj a therapyst. There's nothing wrong about that. Going to therapy doesn't make you disabled. I wish you the best in life or in whatever you decide to do.

But... I think that only weak people go to the therapy. You can't change my mind... Thanks for wishing me well. It mostly about being seen as disabled.

I've tried therapy with a psychologist, a psychiatrist and a few social workers and was made much much worse for it. Watch out for mental health professionals. Do not trust them. That's what I came away with.

No reason to feel "disabled" by it. But the idea they help at least in my case couldn't be farther from the truth. There was always a relationship there even if it's just a professional one, and you can't help feeling inferior in that relationship. They are the all knowing ones and you are the sick one, and it makes you feel worse. I hope you see what I mean.

It would have been best if someone had told me I wasn't "sick" and was normal and the family dynamics I was raised in had a negative affect. That's probably the real problem for lots of people but no one tells you that. So you have a way of relating to others where you are without boundaries and don't know to get away from toxic people.

I know there are a lot of people with real mental health issues so this may not apply to lots of people but in my case that was my experience, and it was really destructive to my well being.

Don't worry I hate them too :)
I'm trying to fight the toxic people in my life.

You don't have to do therapy with another person. You can "talk" to yourself and analyse your own thoughts and feelings. I don't know if it can apply

Yes. Much like going to the regular doctor. You don't know who will help you and how. It may very well be for the worse. Though, that's not to say that this is always the case. It's a gamble. That's why it could be better to "do therapy" with yourself.

I'm trying that self-therapy but it will take ages I'm not educated yet XDD
I don't like physical weaknesses in my body too so saying "oh it's just a regular disease" doesn't help. Yup therapy is a gamble. It takes time to determine whether a psychologist is good or not and damage is done by the time you realize something is wrong.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I think that only weak people go to the therapy

No, I think you're wrong. People who want to be helpt go to therapy. There's no weakness in looking for help. Some people can solve their problems by themselves. Some people not and look for help or not. And the rest commit suicide. Personally, I don't go to therapy because I know IN MY CASE it's a waste of time. I have body issues that cannot solve and there are only two options for me: acceptance or ctb. I only live the day. Today I'm here. Tomorrow, who knows.

 

[Cioran]

Agreed. If you go to the doctor, you are by definition weak or you wouldn't be seeking help. What "the problem" was was not weakness in terms of autonomy but in terms of self worth. And yes therapy, either self- or not, cannot cure everything.