Venting I don't want to do this anymore

[whenisitmytimetodie]

I don't know how to continue this shit anymore. I am a genuinely horrible person and deserve to die in the first place, but what makes it all worse is i keep trying over and over to change sth because i am my own victim too, the good parts of me are. And I keep trying to make them win and become a better person but i fail, every damn time. So often I tried to free myself and make everything better but everything always goes wrong. I just cant succeed ever, i wish i had the courage to die. I'd deserve it and it would free myself and everyone I ever hurted. I can't do this anymore.

 

[Rayzieka]

I doubt you're as bad as you think, almost everyone thinks they're horrible.
Atleast you care and try to work on yourself. I think that makes you better than a lot of people.

 

[FuneralCry]

Our own thoughts can torture us and we can be really hard on ourselves. It can be hard feeling like that, when we are at our limits and cannot take anymore. I wish you well, I hope you find relief from your thoughts.