Discussion I don't want to die, not really.

[Yellow_Water620]

I don't want to die. I have hopes and dreams. I fell in love with drawing. It's the only thing I'm relatively good at. I wanted to see it through. I wanted to make amazing stories and share them with the world. But now they'll die with me. I feel as though I'm being forced to kill myself because I'm in such a vulnerable spot right now, with no support. No, no, it's me I won't blame anyone else.

How do I go on? I'm not suicidal, far from it. But I don't want to suffer. I really don't. The people I love wish me suffering. I have people who care for me, I do. But my life is so objectively awful I can't possibly tell them about it. I'm not strong enough. The people I have told can't do a thing, they're barely holding on themselves. I don't want to die, not really. But if things don't get better. If I have to endure this. This isn't worth it. I'll fight, though. Believe me I'll fight. I don't want my story to end in such a way.

I want to prepare my ctb method. Can someone help me? What is the most peaceful way? SN seems to be the most promising. I believe I have found DMC. Anyone willing to confirm?

 

[divinemistress36]

Hey if you dont really want to die then its ok to reach out for help such as therapy and or medication

 

[Yellow_Water620]

Yes, I plan to exhaust every resource I have at my disposal. I'm acutely aware of how impulsive I can be. I'm just anxious I won't be able to die in a peaceful way if things become too unbearable. It was hard enough to find and there are folks actively working to expunge it.