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huntermellow
another bpd death statistic
- Aug 6, 2024
- 67
i need life to get bad. very bad. i need it to get even worse than it already is because i don't care about things getting better anymore. i need everything to get bad enough so i feel no regret when i feel myself dying. but i also wish i could have one last good memory before i die. preferably with him but that won't happen. all i have left are my voice memos. i can relive the happiest moments of my life over and over again. at least they're proof i was wanted for a bit. all i wanted was an explanation from him. he's going to be so angry at me when i show up unannounced. but at least it gives me more reasons to want to die. everyone already thinks i'm crazy so do i even have anything else left to lose? whatever else i do have left to lose just take it from me already. i don't deserve anything good. i'll always be known as the crazy obsessive bitch that was used as a rebound. i just wanted to prove i could be loved and not be known as that.
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