CTB is one thing and making yourself damage and then live with it is another thing. Belive me, you don't want to suffer more then you do now, despite how much you want to CTB. Let me give an example from my life. I got SN and last week wanted to take but I found it is not SN, that shit I got makes damage to brain and eyes. Even having method you have to be sure as much as you can, cause you never know. There are lot of scammers, people make money on others' health and lives. So read, ask, do your own research and be careful.