i dont understand suicide notes

[awfullymorbid]

I don't mean to be ignorant whatsoever, of course I understand suicide notes in theory, but why?

What I don't understand is why people feel the need to write them. Me personally, I'm bad with human connections. I feel as if I'm not really emotionally connected to most people. I've never been in a relationship, I haven't had that many meaningful friendships, my most important developing years were spent without my family and then when I came back all I got was mental abuse and neglect, which means my connection with my parents isn't that great.
So yes, maybe it's a me problem, and maybe moment right before I ctb ill actually start to feel the need to write these letters, but as of right now, it's really nothing I necessarily care about and wonder if this is relatable in any way.

I also feel like a lot of people already know my intentions with this life. I fear that when I get the chance to speak I speak way more than I should've and people generally know that I don't enjoy life, even so no one has ever checked up on me, which I guess means they don't believe my abilities to ctb? (Unfortunately I don't know if I believe my abilities either..)

Idk I feel like leaving a note seems too obnoxious in my case, if I were to leave one id probably leave it in my room for someone to find it, not send one directly to the targeted person.

 

[SuicidalCurryBoy]

Some people want the world to know they existed... It's not that complicated.

You might not want it. Others do.

 

[Untoten_]

Some people want the world to know they existed... It's not that complicated.

You might not want it. Others do.

When I did it with mine, I didn't write anything, I did prepare though.

I think it depends on the people that said person has, me, I had/have nobody, so I had nobody to write to.

 

[SoulWhisperer]

Whether to write or not is entirely up to the person. Me personally I'd want to leave something behind, even just to leave a mark or something, even for myself. But it's understandable to not want to write anything as well, each situation and each person is different and can wish for different things, or change their minds about virtually anything at anytime too.

 

[Al1ce]

I understand you. I don't feel like leaving a suicide note either. It all depends on personal preferences and trust in people. for example, I wouldn't do this because I have nothing to say to people who could potentially find her, I don't want to explain anything to them