I don't think I'm fit for this world

[CosmicVoid]

I've been trying to make it work, but I just don't think I can or even want to. Look at this world. It's full of conflict, misery and pain. I've tried to be open minded, I've tried to smile and think positive no matter what the situation is, but no matter what I do I just can't look past all this bullshit. I grow angrier and bitter day by day. I don't even want to interact with anyone anymore, even the simple things like opening a reddit post and looking at comments make bitter. I look at the sheer stupidity, ignorance and hypocrisy of the posters and realize that these are my fellow human beings, the people I'm meant to share my existence with. Worst of all is that I'm becoming something that I once hated, I'm the biggest hypocrite. I hate this world, I hate that I was born into this shithole, I hate this burden that was put on me. I never asked for any of this, I'm just tired of it. I don't know how much longer I can go on like this.

 

[WornOutLife]

I agree with you.
We never asked for this unasked weird thing called life.

I'm trying to give life one more shot but damn, it's surely difficult.

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

I hear you, my friend. I don't even know why I'm still "trying". It makes zero sense. And this sense of absolute hopelessness hurts so much.

 

[BlankUser]

I feel the same way. I'm just not fit for this world. I don't know how to do taxes, how to do job interviews, how to communicate, how to pay bills... And I don't even want to do it. Even shopping with my debit card can create an anxiety for me. My parents never taught me these things. I have no life skills.

 

[BottomlessPit]

I can relate so much. Like you, I tried to cope with this world for so many years. I read stoic philosophy and all the self-help bs available in an attempt to brainwash myself into being okay with a world that is obviously cruel and flawed. I tried, I truly did. But I simply cannot make myself be okay with all the suffering in this world. Why should I bother to be a part of this nonsense?

 

[JustAMatterOfTime]

I think the same you are right. I'm not made for this world either well more like society. I quite like the world, I like woods and meadows, and animals, it is people that are the problem for me. I've tried and failed the anxiety and panic too much, should not be feeling how I do over such small things like someone offering me their parking ticket so I didn't have to pay and me reacting like they're a rapist or something.

 

[Donk]

I'm giving one final try with Ketamine Treatment. If it doesn't work out then I can honestly tell myself that I've exhausted all options. I hope I'll have the courage and strength to CTB when the time comes.

 

[FuneralCry]

I know the feeling. Sometimes I feel ashamed to be human when I look at all that is wrong with our species. My mind and body are tired and I desire non existence. My mind just simply wasn't designed to function in this world. Why do we have to live such an life full of suffering we did not choose just to die and for it not to mean anything? There is no point.

 

[jenepeuxdiremonnom]

Growing more bitter and angry, as well as becoming someone I never wanted to be, resonate strongly with me. The more acute problem is the growing bitterness/anger. I'm not sure how to assuage or manage it.

 

[EraseRewind]

I agree with all here, I feel as though I'm not suitable for this world and have been told by many that I should not live anymore. My past action is all that people think of, I've never hurt anyone but disappointed many and lost respect of most.

I never had any real friends so I'm sure my ctb will affect only a few close people. I wish I could redeem myself before the end, I keep trying to live and be grateful for the things I've managed to hold on to.

 

[BandAddict]

This world (the society that's been assembled) wasn't made for us. It's been built as a playground for the elite/privileged and the selfish. It's been made to destroy itself, and those who see it and realize how fucked up it all is, are the freaks, the outcasts. Sometimes I feel like it would be easier to accept it if my eyes were closed to the ugliness, or if I decided to join in on the game that everyone is playing, but I can't.

 

[fishtacos4me]

This world (the society that's been assembled) wasn't made for us. It's been built as a playground for the elite/privileged and the selfish. It's been made to destroy itself, and those who see it and realize how fucked up it all is, are the freaks, the outcasts. Sometimes I feel like it would be easier to accept it if my eyes were closed to the ugliness, or if I decided to join in on the game that everyone is playing, but I can't.

My feelings exactly. I wasn't born into a 1% family, so this wasn't designed for me. It was designed so that people like me would prop up the system and keep it running for those one percenters. The whole point of life is to work to keep the elite privileged. Without all of us poor unwashed masses, the system wouldn't work for the privileged. So the point of my life is to suffer so that some rich person can live a good life. I do try to play along. I act as if all this makes sense and it's all good and I'm on board, but I know its crap.

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

even the simple things like opening a reddit post and looking at comments make bitter.

I deleted my reddit account recently for this very reason, I couldn't stand reading all that nonsense anymore. The internet used to be my refuge, but now it's only making me more cynical and jaded.

 

[nopointofliving]

I feel the same way. I'm just not fit for this world. I don't know how to do taxes, how to do job interviews, how to communicate, how to pay bills... And I don't even want to do it. Even shopping with my debit card can create an anxiety for me. My parents never taught me these things. I have no life skills.

I can relate... it's very hard