Discussion I don't think i can make it to my birthday

[Dan555]

I'm going out of my house again after a long time because it's my girlfriend birthday, but I just can't fake it anymore. I'm not able to give my self the strength to fake being good, so im currently saying to her that im acting this way because of the hot summer we are experiencing, it's working for now but my mind is always thinking about when it will finally be over. my birthday it's the 16 of August and don't think i will be able to go past next week. any suggestions on how to act ok to not make anyone worried about me?

 

[Alltheywanted]

A few days ago I called my friend for the first time and said that I was not well because I started (quite hard) to cut myself. when he showed up i showed him my wounds and i felt very uncomfortable but he calmed me down and even thanked me for calling him.

So maybe instead of trying to pretend to your girlfriend that everything is okay, try having an honest conversation with her. Maybe she will help you to recover and if not then u decide to ctb anyway.

Whatever you're gonna do, i wish you all the best <3

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Personally talk to people i care that i am suicidal, ruined my life and their life even more so.. i can understand you, maybe say you have some disease

 

[Dan555]

A few days ago I called my friend for the first time and said that I was not well because I started (quite hard) to cut myself. when he showed up i showed him my wounds and i felt very uncomfortable but he calmed me down and even thanked me for calling him.

So maybe instead of trying to pretend to your girlfriend that everything is okay, try having an honest conversation with her. Maybe she will help you to recover and if not then u decide to ctb anyway.

Whatever you're gonna do, i wish you all the best <3

hi man, thanks for the kind words, I've thought about telling her but, I don't know, I don't want to give her worries, and plus even if she tried to comfort me i don't think it will change much, and then i will do it anyway, but if she tried she will think she didn't do enough and she will feel twice as bad. so yeah, don't really know.

Personally talk to people i care that i am suicidal, ruined my life and their life even more so.. i can understand you, maybe say you have some disease

hi thanks, yeah i don't know why im always like this, i have a gf, i have my passions and my family, I should be good, so I guess I'm just like this, that's part of the reason why I want to go.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it's really understandable just feeling so tired of suffering here and wanting to escape from it all, existing certainly can be so dreadful, I would personally just carry on pretending to answer the question and not say anything to make other people think otherwise. But anyway best wishes.