I don't think i can keep going

[Some place nice]

When they push people away they do it until that person is gone. I want to think that they just fell asleep again but idk they left me on read, not even a little text. I told them that I wasn't good but that my thoughts have leveled out but they are bad again. I have 5 pill bottles full of lethal pills but I might just do the 4. Aspirin makes me throw up just by the smell. I tried to call out for help but was overshadowed by thier issues. I care more about them than myself. Idk if I can do it but I'm done fighting. I'll try to ask for help again but Idk if they'll answer me.

 

[shun75x]

Can I help you?

 

[Some place nice]

Can I help you?

Sure

 

[shun75x]

Sure

I'm here to listen to you! You don't need to do anything you are not ready to do.

 

[Some place nice]

I'm here to listen to you! You don't need to do anything you are not ready to do.

It feels like the option for me rn. No matter how much I dont wanna do it.

 

[shun75x]

It feels like the option for me rn. No matter how much I dont wanna do it.

why is that? I think this is sth you need to think very well.

 

[Some place nice]

why is that? I think this is sth you need to think very well.

I'm in so much pain I cant handle it anymore.

 

[shun75x]

I'm in so much pain I cant handle it anymore.

Are you still here ?

 

[Some place nice]

Are you still here ?

Yea.

 

[shun75x]

Yea.

I am happy then :)