Venting I don’t think I can CTB anymore

[joegoes100]

(For context look at my last post)
I was ready to ctb less than 30 minutes ago, but I can't even think about it anymore. I honestly feel like I can't attempt again. I just keep thinking about how'd they react if I acted sooner and they walked in to check on me and just saw me dead. I dont think I'm healed completely, but I don't want to die anymore. I don't know if this is like a shock thing, but I feel so strange.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

That sounds like a good thing, happy for you . Healing takes time, just try to be patient with yourself & with the process .

 

[joegoes100]

That sounds like a good thing, happy for you . Healing takes time, just try to be patient with yourself & with the process .

Thank you. I will

 

[systemic_livestock]

(For context look at my last post)
I was ready to ctb less than 30 minutes ago, but I can't even think about it anymore. I honestly feel like I can't attempt again. I just keep thinking about how'd they react if I acted sooner and they walked in to check on me and just saw me dead. I dont think I'm healed completely, but I don't want to die anymore. I don't know if this is like a shock thing, but I feel so strange.

I can't seem to click on your profile to read context, but I hope you find peace and make life worth living i hope things work out for you.

 

[kufajoy]

Hey it maybe sounds bad but you really should not stay in this site much longer. Staying here might trigger those dark thoughts again. I really hope you will find many valuable things to grip your life longer.

 

[pelicanportal]

let's do it brother, let's live

 

[joegoes100]

I can't seem to click on your profile to read context, but I hope you find peace and make life worth living i hope things work out for you.

Oh sorry about that. Basically minutes before my attempt my little brother got very sick and starting puking all over the bathroom and woke up my parents. For more context I'm 18 and living with them.

Hey it maybe sounds bad but you really should not stay in this site much longer. Staying here might trigger those dark thoughts again. I really hope you will find many valuable things to grip your life longer.

I was considering that, but I think helping others may help me also.

 

[finalshot12]

Been following your threads and watching your journey. Glad you're still here, man. I think recovery is the best option for you. Do yourself a huge service and leave this site. It will only drag you back down. I do not believe fate or destiny either, but your experience would make me question things if I was in your position. I truly think this was a sign for you. You got this.