I don't remember much of anything in my life and feel so detached.

[BitterlyAlive]

I don't know what's going on. I don't feel like I know people, I don't feel like I've had my past jobs or education. I just graduated from college and I don't even remember college - I don't even feel like I was a student. I know I was because I have my diploma and awards here, but it just feels wrong. I guess I just feel detached from my memories in general, and myself, and people I should feel close to. I hardly even remember my damn suicide attempt, and that happened this year. I feel detached from what I remember about that, too.

I've had issues with dissociation before, especially when my anxiety and depression get really intense, but this is unnerving. I've talked to a therapist about my dissociation and they didn't seem concerned about it, even though it seems pretty much chronic to me. Maybe it's because it's generally mild.

I wonder if this is anxiety and depression stressing me out on a whole new level. I suppose it could be "trauma"... I don't remember my childhood, or adolescence...or, at this point, even my young adult years. Maybe I'm starting to actually lose my mind.

 

[Life sucks]

I understand. I'm dissociated from my childhood and pre-depression time. Its like I never lived that time. I almost don't remember anything except some of abuse memories and some stuff I love like video games.

 

[Deleted member 17331]

The same here. I don't remember much, the times when was using antipsychotics were the worst. I just remember bad and distressing moments... It's like I'm being erased with my memories, blank pages.

 

[Soulless Angel]

I feel very detached from current surroundings, not heard it termed as dissociation , but I guess that is kind of obvious when you think about it!
My past replays in my mind a lot, sometime's I just feel I am viewing someone's story, not my own, it then makes me question was it really me that went through that.
For me though feeling the detached feeling now is the worst, it hit strong the other night when I was randomly eating a pie, I ended up just picking it up and throwing it away without a second thought, then just stood there wondering what is the point in all this, is this even real, why am I eating, where am I in reality, it was so strange

 

[catsarecool]

I feel this. My childhood and teenage years are a haze, and a lot of the memories that I do have are negative. It's hard for me to remember where or how I met people. Feeling disconnected from your own life is so disorientating.

I recently experienced a 2-3 hour memory gap. Apparently I was hanging out with a group of friends online and they were insistent that I was there. But I can't remember anything. None of it rings a bell and for a second I thought my friends were pulling a prank on me. It's really distressing just not being able to remember something that you should.

 

[Thinking]

I dissociate too but it's usually not too bad. Like I can usually get a sense of where I am I just feel detached from reality. I've found doing something physical helps (ex. holding ice, doing a plank or jump lunges, or cutting (though I'm trying to break this habit))

 

[Cashewmilk]

I wish I could forget... remembering and dreaming is extremely annoying