shantyizlit

shantyizlit

Really, what was the point?
Jul 7, 2023
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I had heavy anxiety on the day that I had decided to try and CTB with heroin overdose administered rectally(boofing). But I wanted to test out my product and practice boofing before I administered the OD and after I started heavily nodding out on the heroin I was like fuck it I'm just gonna do it, I literally had no fear and no anxiety at that point I was just super chilling and was like well might as well do it now it's getting kind of late. I woke up like 15 hours later totally out of it super stiff in my body couldn't really have my neck straight and couldn't lift my right arm above my shoulder, I already had chronic pain and now it's just a lot worse.. at least I didn't wake up with brain damage.. Thinking back on it, it was pretty fucking stupid. I can't actually believe people actually die on this stuff, they must be lucky.
My new plan is to exit bag + Helium, and to smoke a lot of weed and take a lot of heroin to ease the nerves on the day of me CTB and just being completely blissed and chilled out when I pull the bag with helium over my face!
 
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Mrpickles

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Sep 29, 2023
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I had heavy anxiety on the day that I had decided to try and CTB with heroin overdose administered rectally(boofing). But I wanted to test out my product and practice boofing before I administered the OD and after I started heavily nodding out on the heroin I was like fuck it I'm just gonna do it, I literally had no fear and no anxiety at that point I was just super chilling and was like well might as well do it now it's getting kind of late. I woke up like 15 hours lately totally out of it super stiff in my body couldn't really have my neck straight and couldn't lift my right arm above my shoulder, I already had chronic pain and now it's just a lot worse.. at least I didn't wake up with brain damage.. Thinking back on it, it was pretty fucking stupid. I can't actually believe people actually die on this stuff, they must be lucky.
My new plan is to exit bag + Helium, and to smoke a lot of weed and take a lot of heroin to ease the nerves on the day of me CTB and just being completely blissed and chilled out when I pull the bag with helium over my face!
I got clean several years back. However, part of it was moving far away from where I could get it. Now that I'm nearing the bus station, I really want to have it for the way out. But unfortunately I can't get my hands on it. I probably would have relapsed by this point if I did :/
 
shantyizlit

shantyizlit

Really, what was the point?
Jul 7, 2023
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I got clean several years back. However, part of it was moving far away from where I could get it. Now that I'm nearing the bus station, I really want to have it for the way out. But unfortunately I can't get my hands on it. I probably would have relapsed by this point if I did :/
not to try and get you hooked or anything, but I feel really nice about having it for when I CTB, you can get it quite easily on the dark web. You can just look at the stickied thread about darkweb markets.
 
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Mrpickles

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Sep 29, 2023
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not to try and get you hooked or anything, but I feel really nice about having it for when I CTB, you can get it quite easily on the dark web. You can just look at the stickied thread about darkweb markets.
Yeah, I just don't know how much I trust those. Seems risky and can't CTB if it's intercepted and enforcement shows up at my door instead lol. I've been taking kratom for last year and a half, so I can't claim being "squeaky clean" I guess, but it's way less intense :p
 
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shantyizlit

Really, what was the point?
Jul 7, 2023
189
Yeah, I just don't know how much I trust those. Seems risky and can't CTB if it's intercepted and enforcement shows up at my door instead lol. I've been taking kratom for last year and a half, so I can't claim being "squeaky clean" I guess, but it's way less intense :p
kratom's still fun tho
 
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notreallyhere

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Dec 12, 2022
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not to try and get you hooked or anything, but I feel really nice about having it for when I CTB, you can get it quite easily on the dark web. You can just look at the stickied thread about darkweb markets.
If you're comfortable please dm me about which vendors you trust for reliable heroin product the China white I ordered off archetyp market ended up being shit and a giant waste of money
 
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