I don't know if I'm a good fit to post here, am I too privileged to take up space on this forum?

[MixedMatter]

I'm new to the forum, but been lurking for a few months now. I've been having suicidal thoughts for a a good while and I'm thinking on putting together an exit plan for myself.

I see so much suffering here the likes I could never understand. I have loving parents, family, and good friends. I haven't gone through any significant violent traumas. Yet I still have this persistent urge to leave it all behind because living hurts too much somehow.

The biggest factors that drive these feelings come from a continued feeling of disconnect with the world around me, and the disconnect I have with myself via my dysphoria (I dont know how many other trans people are on here, I hope there's folks here who I can relate to). I can't seem to be able to experience love or joy without complex nuanced thought processes sucking every enjoyable thing out of such emotions.

I hope this post doesn't intrude on anybody, if there's any advice for such feelings, I would have an immense amount of gratitude to hear it.

 

[tiger b]

The only qualification for suffering is breathing. Welcome. Here's to complex nuanced thought processes and the robotic existence they bring

 

[FlyAwayHoney]

We're all here for the same reasons more or less, so don't feel discouraged from hanging out here. Also, people having less fortunate circumstances than you doesn't take away from your own problems.

If you are contemplating suicide, planning it out, or even rethinking things (recovery section), you'll fit in fine here. As long as you're respectful of others of course.

 

[MixedMatter]

The only qualification for suffering is breathing. Welcome. Here's to complex nuanced thought processes and the robotic existence they bring

Super appreciate the warm words. I have a habit of not feeling welcome that seems to follow me 24/7, but this really does help! Thank you

 

[WonderingSoul]

You aren't intruding at all. Your feelings are valid. You are welcome to post on here and I do hope you feel welcomed while being on here.

 

[tiger b]

I don’t feel welcome in this forum

I don't know if it's because of my braindead questions or comments, or my uselessness to others in here. When I joined this forum I thought I could feel as part of this community, make some friends maybe, but it's no different to how my life has always been, always rejected and alone. I'm...

sanctioned-suicide.net

This might bring you some more relief. You're definitely not the only member of that club.

 

[MixedMatter]

We're all here for the same reasons more or less, so don't feel discouraged from hanging out here. Also, people having less fortunate circumstances than you doesn't take away from your own problems.

If you are contemplating suicide, planning it out, or even rethinking things (recovery section), you'll fit in fine here. As long as you're respectful of others of course.

Thanks a ton, I'm hoping on discussing on this forum to makes sense of the direction my brain is headed and I would hate to cause further harm by not being in the right place. Appreciate the reassurance!

 

[OccydePoes]

Everyone has their own personal reasons to sign up here.

Welcome to the forum;)

 

[CC123]

you have to be true to yourself
all are welcomed here (or should be IMO)

 

[NocturnILL]

Hiii Welcome!!
You're not being intrusive at all. I'm sorry you're feeling hesitant. Your feelings are your own regardless of what you have or don't have. You, like many of us, are here for their own reasons and we all have different and/or similar situations and that's ok! Everyone fits in their own way. I hope you feel welcomed and comfortable enough to express yourself the way you want. No pressure and no judgement. This community truly is accepting. You should fit in just fine dear

 

[Yaffle]

We all have our own reasons for feeling suicidal and they're not for anyone to judge.

We're pro choice but caring too. Nobody will push you under the bus, we just respect your right to catch it.

You'll fit in just fine, we're all people living with suicidal thoughts.

I hope you find us a welcoming community and you also find all the help you need choosing a preparing a method.

 

[NeedAnEscape]

You are experiencing suicidal thoughts, like the rest of us here. Welcome to the forum! You don't need to suffer significant traumas to 'belong here.' Just the fact that you find existence painful is enough of a reason for you to be in this community. I hope you can find peace and comfort here.

 

[username8888]

Not wishing to breath and poop is also a good reason to ctb, for me.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Everyone's feelings are valid. This is a space to openly discuss suicide. There isn't a minimum pain requirement. I think- just the feeling of being over privelaged and not worthy is a horrible one. People here can usually relate on the simple level that we are all suffering in one way or another. Welcome to the forum. I hope you find some comfort here.

 

[Photographer Fizzle]

I envy you.
If I had those things, I wouldn't be here.

I do, however, also understand that while we are all made of the same stuff that it is arranged differently across most of us. This reminds me of YouTube true crime videos where the inevitable comment that goes something like this: "the same things happened to me. I didn't kill people." That person is clearly boasting about their overcoming dire circumstances while ignoring lots of factors.

I don't actually hate life despite the violence, the bullying, the abuse. I like gardening and sunsets and the scent of rain and returning baby birds to their nests and cooking and Pokemon and reading literature and lots of other things. But i'm desperate and things have gone sideways for me with no hope to improve.

I say all that to say I get it. You orient to the world in a different way.

 

[FuneralCry]

One doesn't have to meet a certain suffering criteria to be able to post here, as after all we all have our right to die anyway. And I see wanting to die as always being a valid way to feel, I personally don't understand how one could wish to exist in the first place.