Discussion I don't know how should i react?

[Red.one]

Hi, Im working as a horse riding trainer. I'm in the middle of depression episode. One of my pupiles asked me today, if I'm alright, "couse I'm giving off vibe". If it was just one of the youngsters it wouldn't be much of a deal, but the girl in question is our "not for so long adult", and a volunteer, wonnabe worker. So without a fought I said "yeah, depression and stuff is hitting harder then it should". And than I realized what I told. Im my work I have a professional mask on, "happy go lucky" kind of way. I never even slightly let know anybody I got darkness inside (actually, my work rn is like kind of therapy - kids, horses and stuff).

And than, the girl started to talk about her friend. Girl who tried to kill herself a few times. Apparently, a friend is regularly sending her "goodbye" messages. The girl was nervously explaining how hard it is, and how she knows what depression is like... I... I know how it is to get messenges like this. And I know how it is to send this kind of shieeet. I told her that she need to take care of herself. That if she think it's really needed she should call the emergency line. And than, I told her, that sometimes she should just ignore this kind of messages if she think it's too much - that sometimes ignoring it is better for her AND THE ONE who's sending it. That she should think about herself and her own wellbeing.

And now, hours later I'm in small crisis. I'm afraid that my rhetoric could be harmufull. I was (and sometimes am) the one typing in the middle of the night or morning, about my suicidal feelings to more or less random people. I think I behaved properly (at least as a horse trainer?) for the situation. But still... I'm afraid that my comment could take away a vent space from a kid in need. I'm so lost. Please tell me what you think.

 

[bankai]

I know about the mask you talk about. I wear it myself. Sometimes I will think I'm looking normal and just putting on my normal face until I catch myself in some reflection or some mirror lol. Then I find out how I really look. Ouch. Depressed as hell. Bit disturbing too, 'Cause no one really wants to know how you're doing. Sure, everyone in society will ask, hey, what are you doing? How are you doing? But all they want to hear from you is, hey, I'm doing good man, how about you? No one wants to really know the truth.

They can't handle it.I think you need to be more wary of people and be a little cautious about talking to them about the stuff in real life. I've never really seen people react well to those. It can affect your job. Your personal life as well.

Also a fellow berserk fan. How are you able to handle horses after that horse scene in Berserk dude

 

[Red.one]

I know about the mask you talk about. I wear it myself. Sometimes I will think I'm looking normal and just putting on my normal face until I catch myself in some reflection or some mirror lol. Then I find out how I really look. Ouch. Depressed as hell. Bit disturbing too, 'Cause no one really wants to know how you're doing. Sure, everyone in society will ask, hey, what are you doing? How are you doing? But all they want to hear from you is, hey, I'm doing good man, how about you? No one wants to really know the truth.

They can't handle it.I think you need to be more wary of people and be a little cautious about talking to them about the stuff in real life. I've never really seen people react well to those. It can affect your job. Your personal life as well.

Also a fellow berserk fan. How are you able to handle horses after that horse scene in Berserk dude

That's the point. Normally it's easy for me to mask all of my struggles. But there it just slipped. It slipped becose of "almost like normal mate" kind of relation with this girl.

And about a horse scene... Have you seen that horse? Ther's non horse like THAT horse ir. Please. It was a really bad moment duude... Really bad.

 

[bankai]

That's the point. Normally it's easy for me to mask all of my struggles. But there it just slipped. It slipped becose of "almost like normal mate" kind of relation with this girl.

And about a horse scene... Have you seen that horse? Ther's non horse like THAT horse ir. Please. It was a really bad moment duude... Really bad.

Yeah, it's those moments we need to watch out for. Where we end up slipping. It's better to keep the moments of quiet desperation to ourselves. I haven't seen much good personally come out of discussing these things with anyone else. I know there are decent people out there who will empathize and maybe are people that we can safely confide in. But I think that it'll be like one out of 10 people.

 

[enduringwinter]

Ok horse trainer is a sick job. Are you on a work holiday type thing?

Also u told her what she wanted to hear. What she does is none of ur business.

 

[Red.one]

Ok horse trainer is a sick job. Are you on a work holiday type thing?

Also u told her what she wanted to hear. What she does is none of ur business.

I'm working full time. Summer is just for cumps.