Venting I don't know how much more I can take

[kunikuzushi]

I don't know how I'm going to get through tomorrow. It's not a special day. I've just had enough. I'm just going to sit in my room being tortured, desperately trying to comfort myself all day and failing. I'm so alone. I have no one to talk to and it's my fault. I just want to sleep but I'm being tortured. I'm panicking and trying to figure out how I'm going to get through tomorrow, but I've tried everything and I'm so tired and I don't want to be alone

 

[Overwhelmed52]

Yeah, I've been going through the same thing. I get terrible anxiety/fear and it gets to the point I can't take it. I finally went on meds (Lexapro) and it made my anxiety so much worse for the first few weeks but now I think it's better. I also reached out to someone I had cut off a while ago and they were willing to reconnect and we talk on the phone and text, which has helped. People may be more forgiving than you expect. I also find posting here to be really helpful. I was feeling awful and full of fear the other night and made probably 10 different replies here and then felt much better the next day. It could be a combination of the meds and getting my feelings out. If you haven't tried meds, they may work for you, just be very aware that there could be bad side effects at first. I know someone who is on Prozac and they like it. I hope things get better for you.

 

[kunikuzushi]

Yeah, I've been going through the same thing. I get terrible anxiety/fear and it gets to the point I can't take it. I finally went on meds (Lexapro) and it made my anxiety so much worse for the first few weeks but now I think it's better. I also reached out to someone I had cut off a while ago and they were willing to reconnect and we talk on the phone and text, which has helped. People may be more forgiving than you expect. I also find posting here to be really helpful. I was feeling awful and full of fear the other night and made probably 10 different replies here and then felt much better the next day. It could be a combination of the meds and getting my feelings out. If you haven't tried meds, they may work for you, just be very aware that there could be bad side effects at first. I know someone who is on Prozac and they like it. I hope things get better for you.

I'm sorry you experience such bad anxiety and fear. I'm glad you have some things that help. And yes I have people available for me to talk to, but interactions beyond surface level are extremely painful for me due to personality disorders I have. So I have to isolate myself even though I don't want to. I have tried many meds over the years and they've caused more harm than good for me. One sent me to the emergency room. So I'm not interested in trying any more. Also I believe my reasons for my anxiety and fear are rational, so if I got rid of the feeling through meds, I would still be thinking the same rational things. Thank you for the support.

 

[Overwhelmed52]

I'm sorry you experience such bad anxiety and fear. I'm glad you have some things that help. And yes I have people available for me to talk to, but interactions beyond surface level are extremely painful for me due to personality disorders I have. So I have to isolate myself even though I don't want to. I have tried many meds over the years and they've caused more harm than good for me. One sent me to the emergency room. So I'm not interested in trying any more. Also I believe my reasons for my anxiety and fear are rational, so if I got rid of the feeling through meds, I would still be thinking the same rational things. Thank you for the support.

I can see that with the meds. My anxiety was off the charts when I started, and no one warned me about that. They're marketed as an easy fix but I don't think that's the case for a lot of people. One thing I've found is I can't have any caffeine at all. It will cause my anxiety to spike hours later.
I believe my anxiety and fears are rationale, too, but I tend to spin out and think disaster is imminent and I won't be able to handle it (I"m also pretty isolated). It's an awful, awful feeling, so I really do know what you're going through. I hope something good comes your way soon.

 

[LivingANDDying26]

I don't know how I'm going to get through tomorrow. It's not a special day. I've just had enough. I'm just going to sit in my room being tortured, desperately trying to comfort myself all day and failing. I'm so alone. I have no one to talk to and it's my fault. I just want to sleep but I'm being tortured. I'm panicking and trying to figure out how I'm going to get through tomorrow, but I've tried everything and I'm so tired and I don't want to be alone

I relate a lot. I've started getting to a damn near panic attack levels at going to sleep bc I'm going to have to wake up the next day. Anxiety that my combo of supplements & pharmaceutical/prescribed medication barly touches. They hell a lil/ enough ig but ehhhhh


Its such a rough feeling. Being alone within it too really fucking sucks.

I .

I fond discord servers for sleep calls and voice chats nice/helpful to not be alone in ways.

especially the ones where you can make a ping and such or see otheres make one. I know a few that are pretty cool and can share if you are interested.


hope you are able to find things that help with the anixety and such

 

[kunikuzushi]

I can see that with the meds. My anxiety was off the charts when I started, and no one warned me about that. They're marketed as an easy fix but I don't think that's the case for a lot of people. One thing I've found is I can't have any caffeine at all. It will cause my anxiety to spike hours later.
I believe my anxiety and fears are rationale, too, but I tend to spin out and think disaster is imminent and I won't be able to handle it (I"m also pretty isolated). It's an awful, awful feeling, so I really do know what you're going through. I hope something good comes your way soon.

I'm really sorry you're going through a similar anxiety. Yes it's really awful when you get that feeling of not being able to handle something because the fear is so overwhelming. Thank you for sharing and I hope you can find more things to help.

I relate a lot. I've started getting to a damn near panic attack levels at going to sleep bc I'm going to have to wake up the next day. Anxiety that my combo of supplements & pharmaceutical/prescribed medication barly touches. They hell a lil/ enough ig but ehhhhh


Its such a rough feeling. Being alone within it too really fucking sucks.

I .

I fond discord servers for sleep calls and voice chats nice/helpful to not be alone in ways.

especially the ones where you can make a ping and such or see otheres make one. I know a few that are pretty cool and can share if you are interested.


hope you are able to find things that help with the anixety and such

I'm sorry you relate to this. Yes I get this every night when I have to sleep. I get an overwhelming anxiety and sometimes have a panic attack at the thought of having to wake up and go through another day. I'm sorry you go through this too.

Thank you yes I think those kind of discord servers would be very helpful for me. If you could dm me about it that would be great. Thanks and I wish you luck with your anxiety too.