DeathIsTheWayOut99
Warlock
- Jun 6, 2020
- 798
My brother lashed out at me....again. I almost had a horrible mental breakdown. I was going to ignore him all day till he came out me about his depression after our moms passing
But....I dont care. I just dont care. I am tired of being taken for granted and then begin a bullshit sap story about why that person hurt me. Fuck them all. Fuck my family
If suicide is my only way to....have a semblance of respect then I would rather do it for that reason alone. Also to escape and for revenge.
But I am scared. I am scared of pain. I am scared of abuse. I am scared of not being able to come back to this life once it is all over.
I am scared of dying. I want to die, but knowing that it is the end scares me the most. Its why even though I want ot throw myself offa bridge every fucking day, I never do it. What if I fail and become a vegetable? What if I die and leave my family behind?
My thoughts are all over the place. I sound crazy dont I
But....I dont care. I just dont care. I am tired of being taken for granted and then begin a bullshit sap story about why that person hurt me. Fuck them all. Fuck my family
If suicide is my only way to....have a semblance of respect then I would rather do it for that reason alone. Also to escape and for revenge.
But I am scared. I am scared of pain. I am scared of abuse. I am scared of not being able to come back to this life once it is all over.
I am scared of dying. I want to die, but knowing that it is the end scares me the most. Its why even though I want ot throw myself offa bridge every fucking day, I never do it. What if I fail and become a vegetable? What if I die and leave my family behind?
My thoughts are all over the place. I sound crazy dont I
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