I don't find sense

[niebla]

In recent years I feel that I have not done anything in my life, I find less and less reasons to stay alive, I think that people do not even care about me and sometimes I can confirm it with the actions they do or when I try to talk to them about how I feel not only happens to me with friends but also with family, I hate the phrase that people always tell me "you are like this because you want to be" I am afraid of dying but I don't want to live every day either. It is like a movie that passes in slow motion, the only thing that keeps me away from these thoughts is when I am playing something but when I finish I realize reality again, I repeatedly imagine my death and I feel that I will be forgotten as soon as some time passes that nobody will miss me, sometimes I cry without any apparent reason and I don't know what to think about life anymore

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

"you are like this because you want to be"

That's such an invalidating and dismissive remark. I'm sorry that people are actually telling you that. Looks like you've been a member for a bit, but haven't posted until today so... Welcome to SS. :) Feel free to let us know what's on your mind. There are definitely people that can relate to what you've shared, you're not alone on here.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

welcome to the club.