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Xannyzest
Sleep Deprived
- Jun 14, 2024
- 4
I don't feel like myself, I feel like I'm surviving not living. I don't feel like I have any control over what I do, I just do it. I've always wanted to die, but I wanted it to be my choice and I feel like if I CTB right now it wouldn't be me choosing to die, it'd be some impulsive act forcing me to do it, without being able to stop myself, and that scares me a lot. But at the same time I really do wish I was just dead.