I hate the feeling of my muscles moving when I smile amor talk. I hate the way my lips and cheeks move when I talk. I can't stop hating myself. I wish I had different features that didn't make me feel so uncomfortable all the time. I feel the muscles pull my lips down giving me a permanent frown. It's so unfair it's something that influences so much of my life yet I have such little control over it. I wish I could change my face.
ikadasui
Arcanist
- May 29, 2018
- 466
Same. I don't even like my ethnicity so as you can imagine any part of my body sickens me to the core deeply, and I'm not attractive either so it's a bad time all the time
WhatPowerIs
Paragon
- Jun 19, 2022
- 958
I pretty much relate to both of your guys' experiences. I honest to god hate my ethnicity and I hate that I was born like this. Just fucking sucks all around.
haiku
Soon™
- Aug 31, 2021
- 39
ikadasui
Arcanist
- May 29, 2018
- 466
it's a terrible kind of hell becasuse you really can't explain it to people without them thinking you're nuts, and there also isn't anything you can do about it. So if someone tells you to just get confidence or the generic workout, haircut, clothes and what not it's pointless when the problem is the skin you wear
WhatPowerIs
Paragon
- Jun 19, 2022
- 958
You're right 100%, I don't think I even have the confidence to bring it up in counseling and I don't think my counselor is even equipped enough to deal with the problem so I'm just dealing with this self hate that has no release.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 37,128
I understand that it must be torture being trapped in a body that you hate. It's true that life is largely determined by factors out of our control, it's all very unfair. I'm sorry that you suffer like this.
