All I give to my family is nothing but troubles, every fucking week there's a new art made by me, and they are the ones who have to pay the bill. I don't know why they want me alive, everytime I say to my mother that I shouldn't be alive she says "don't say that, we love you". I was meant to die till the end of the year, but I couldn't make it. Won't set a new deadline to be honest. Shit.
They pay for an art class or program? Sorry I didn't understand that bit. If you've mentioned suicidal feelings to your mom does she talk it out with you and listen to what is distressing you? Also, I'm a mom, and I can tell you I would never see my kids as a burden that I prefer to not have. If your mom loves you she'll never see you as a burden.
ihavetoleave
Member
- Dec 28, 2020
- 89
Same, I keep plodding through the mess I made/make and I didn't want to reach this year and yet here I am with no options and no way to move forward in life or CTB. I selfishly keep hanging to the side of this cliff even though it doesn't help me or anyone else that has the misfortune to be around me.
Sherri
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- Sep 28, 2020
- 13,794
Oh Rosey wish I had a mum like you. Mine doesn't care one bit about me, neither as my dad.
sadbadpsychogirl
sonofabitch
- May 29, 2020
- 725
Sorry Rosey I've made a mistake with my native language. I mean everytime I screw things up the come to solve it.
That makes more sense. Still, if you have a good relationship with your family they will be happy to help and support you. You likely view your self worse than they view you.
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