Venting I don't belong anywhere, I'm sorry.

[expiredfckmeat]

I've never been anywhere I didn't feel like I'm in the way. I've never felt safe anywhere, for as long as I can remember. I've never been able to be my real self, I'm not sure I even know who I am anymore. What I think would make me happy doesn't exist, but hope keeps dragging me along like a dog tied to a truck. What little is left by now no one wants, no one wants what I need to be, either. I'm sorry, sorry I'm not good enough, not sane enough, not same enough. Don't want me, but don't want me to leave? I'm in the way, but stay? I'm sorry.

 

[man_in_red:)]

It's okay. Just stop taking other people's feelings and opinions into consideration, super liberating 10/10 would reccomend

 

[WorthlessCoward]

I like belonging nowhere, I am a child of the void

 

[expiredfckmeat]

It's okay. Just stop taking other people's feelings and opinions into consideration, super liberating 10/10 would reccomend

I've never been able to do that, when I try it messes me up even more.

I like belonging nowhere, I am a child of the void

I'm happy for you but I don't like it at all.

 

[ForeverLonely82]

I don't either. I don't like anything new like movies, games or music. I don't fit in any where. Just merely existing because of 2 selfish people decided to procreate. No one likes me, I like no one because of what they're capable of. Just rot in my trailer. waiting patiently for the end.

 

[TheBroken]

Can relate @expiredfckmeat Never belonged - ever. Always alone and no friends no matter how much genuine effort I put into trying. Learned to do everything by myself and stopped caring long ago. CTB device done and hidden. Helping family member through one last surgery and then I'll be leaving. So glad it's my last year.

 

[SexyIncél]

What do you need to be?

 

[expiredfckmeat]

What do you need to be?

Doesn't really matter. Even if I could properly explain there's nowhere I'd feel safe doing so; I've had my deepest feelings used against me too many times. That's my fault, and I'm sorry for it.

 

[FuneralCry]

The unfortunate reality is that life really is something that is so unnecessarily cruel and it's incredibly unfair how we exist in a world where people suffer so much, it must be tiring being trapped in that situation but anyway I wish you the best.

 

[expiredfckmeat]

The unfortunate reality is that life really is something that is so unnecessarily cruel and it's incredibly unfair how we exist in a world where people suffer so much, it must be tiring being trapped in that situation but anyway I wish you the best

I don't know anymore, but thank you.

 

[expiredfckmeat]

Since I found my way here, I realized I've never seen so many of the same thoughts, feelings, and experiences I have being expressed by others (and said better than I could). I just want to say thank you all, and I'm so, so sorry (I wouldn't wish feeling like this on anybody). I shut up now...

 

[SexyIncél]

No need to shut up, and you're not in the way here... Hopefully one day you can talk about these things. Even if in an abstract unclear way...

 

[Riu]

I understand how you feel. I also feel like I'm out of place and I'm in the way. I also feel hopeless because I think that my ideal life will never come true. I also feel like I can't keep up with everyone, like the world is too big for me and that everyone and everything is better than me. I also feel useless and stupid a lot of the time. Please don't beat yourself up over this. We're all human and we're all in this together. Please know that you're not alone and that you are valid.

 

[BloomingRose]

In my case I feel kinda like an alien or just someone very different. I don't really connect with anyone and don't have goals in life, so I am just existing and waiting for my time to come, when I'll be ready.
And as @absurdtimeline said, you don't have to shut up, I think people on this site are mostly kindhearted and won't judge you for your feelings.

 

[old_constant69]

Same, I understand how you feel.