Venting I do not wish to die alone

[zekeyaeger]

I tried to be self reliant as much as I can, but I need people, sadly. I do not want someone to be by my side irl, or even a stream, I am quite okay with a Goodbye thread and some nice stuff to hear before I die.

Over time my love for people has grown less and less in general, but I still need company, it seems.

 

[theater]

what are you dealing with right now?

 

[zekeyaeger]

what are you dealing with right now?

Shit just keeps getting worse. :( Just more and more pain, really.

 

[theater]

Shit just keeps getting worse. :( Just more and more pain, really.

For real when it rains, it pours. Do you mind sharing how your pain is? Is it emotional pain and/or physical pain?

 

[zekeyaeger]

For real when it rains, it pours. Do you mind sharing how your pain is? Is it emotional pain and/or physical pain?

Unfortunately talking about it doesn't help, only distractions aid me now. Keep me away from pain for a minute.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

I hear you on distractions. As well as not wanting to be alone. I hope you know we will be here for you. If you want to chat and share music or memes or something, please reach out, we don't need to rehash painful things. Xx <3

 

[theater]

Unfortunately talking about it doesn't help, only distractions aid me now. Keep me away from pain for a minute.

I understand. I am sorry I wasn't being sensitive to your pain.

This is a good community with a lot of people who will continue to keep you company.

 

[zekeyaeger]

I understand. I am sorry I wasn't being sensitive to your pain.

This is a good community with a lot of people who will continue to keep you company.

No no you are fine, thanks for offering the help. And yes, SaSu has helped me put out thoughts I wouldn't be able to anywhere. It is a nice place, plus, it has aided me well in getting the stuff I need to CTB, I cannot be more thankful, really.