i do not belong here.

[olvidame]

ever since i was a child, all i ever wanted to do was to be left alone. playing videogames in my room all day long. i have not changed, and i am 28. the very concept of life bored me. i only ever find enjoyment in playing videogames. i am currently financially supported by my parents who are old and have medical conditions. once they die i will kill myself. people will subject themselves to suffering by homelessness and i find it insane. i am living on my own terms, lazily, lonely. and i will die on my own terms, too. i have tried to stray from this path, to no avail. emptiness and death call to me. it is my fate, and one i am done trying to deny. i feel elated. no more fighting it. i am at peace with what i am.

"Never have I understood those around me. Understood their obsessions. Besieged by their banality, the world is a mire of tedium and trivialities." - Zenos Galvus

 

[Mukuro Ikusaba]

ever since i was a child, all i ever wanted to do was to be left alone. playing videogames in my room all day long. i have not changed, and i am 28. the very concept of life bored me. i only ever find enjoyment in playing videogames. i am currently financially supported by my parents who are old and have medical conditions. once they die i will kill myself. people will subject themselves to suffering by homelessness and i find it insane. i am living on my own terms, lazily, lonely. and i will die on my own terms, too. i have tried to stray from this path, to no avail. emptiness and death call to me. it is my fate, and one i am done trying to deny. i feel elated. no more fighting it. i am at peace with what i am.

"Never have I understood those around me. Understood their obsessions. Besieged by their banality, the world is a mire of tedium and trivialities." - Zenos Galvus

I feel exactly the same. I want to do the exact same thing.

 

[resurgence]

man, you sound exactly like me. im really glad this forum exists, as you find people you relate to on things like this

 

[kissmegoodbye]

ever since i was a child, all i ever wanted to do was to be left alone. playing videogames in my room all day long. i have not changed, and i am 28. the very concept of life bored me. i only ever find enjoyment in playing videogames. i am currently financially supported by my parents who are old and have medical conditions. once they die i will kill myself. people will subject themselves to suffering by homelessness and i find it insane. i am living on my own terms, lazily, lonely. and i will die on my own terms, too. i have tried to stray from this path, to no avail. emptiness and death call to me. it is my fate, and one i am done trying to deny. i feel elated. no more fighting it. i am at peace with what i am.

"Never have I understood those around me. Understood their obsessions. Besieged by their banality, the world is a mire of tedium and trivialities." - Zenos Galvus

i really understand this,, ive never really been able to connect with others well and just being by myself playing videogames is just comforting, everything else is too hard and just not worth it.

 

[kitia973]

Some of us are just not suitable for existence. I feel the exact same way as you.

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

I've felt this since I was a child, but I like doing adult things… Just not in this world. This is why some people are not made to be alive in this world… Why can't they understand it's emotionally exhausting living when you have lost your sense of peace and safety blanket. Not everyone is equipped for this — especially not majority of us.

Movies for me and my daydreams and imagining myself in a brighter better, happier future or sleeping

i really understand this,, ive never really been able to connect with others well and just being by myself playing videogames is just comforting, everything else is too hard and just not worth it.

 

[human909]

I also feel like I do not belong here but for a different reason, I get you and I hope you find peace soon.

 

[finallydone]

you don't belong here and neither do i, but as crazy as this might sound, i wish i was in your place knowing what i know