SHThrowAway213
That's the hell I live with
- Apr 19, 2018
- 658
Spent a good hour sat on a bench and walking around, getting drunk.
Tried at the level crossing. Someone was sat on the bench and kept staring at me when I was at the gate, so I got paranoid and walked on.
So I went back to the station.
3 fucking trains passed and by the 3rd I just felt so defeated and hopeless I cried.
I think next time I need to start drinking by the time I leave my house and hopefully get blackout drunk.
I think it is the only way to overcome my SI.
I'm so fucking mad, I always do this, I always make a big fucking deal out of it too on here and its embarrassing.
My next opportunity is Monday.
Tried at the level crossing. Someone was sat on the bench and kept staring at me when I was at the gate, so I got paranoid and walked on.
So I went back to the station.
3 fucking trains passed and by the 3rd I just felt so defeated and hopeless I cried.
I think next time I need to start drinking by the time I leave my house and hopefully get blackout drunk.
I think it is the only way to overcome my SI.
I'm so fucking mad, I always do this, I always make a big fucking deal out of it too on here and its embarrassing.
My next opportunity is Monday.