edu0z
carried away by a moonlight shadow
- Aug 25, 2021
- 552
HI
I still have to do hypnosis therapies, but there are no longer 3 of us, now it's just me, and that makes me very happy.
Last year after leaving college and a couple of suicide attempts that I couldn't control, I was admitted to a psychiatric clinic. There a psychologist who was treating me showed me that I had a "fragmented" personality, however paradoxically he never told me what I should do or helped me with it (it was a collective of psychiatrists and he, and when they saw that I was more cheerful and less depressive, they discharged me.) Then after that there was a very bad time that increase the problem. By the end of the year we were already three completely independent people in my head (Eduardo, Lorena and Kevin). So I went to see a psychiatrist and she told me that was DID... but she did not have the necessary knowledge and the psychologist that could treat me was on vacation until January
When the year 2022 began, I decided to take action on my own, and document myself. We stop calling in plural, stop dissociating some behaviors and assume the things I did and felt... accept things like "Maybe I like men" or "Maybe I want to be a woman" or "Yes, I'm depressed, it's normal." I still have a lot of mood swings, but I no longer have blank spaces in my memory, and when I think about something there are no longer 3 opinions in my head.
I am proud to be one person again and to be in control of my actions within what is possible. Now I can work on the trauma that caused all of that in the first place.
Now I know I have a very big problem with my sexuality and I can focus on that. I start college again in April and the psychologist told me he would help me be more stable by then. For the first time in my life, I feel hopeful that things can get better :)
Good day for everyone.
I still have to do hypnosis therapies, but there are no longer 3 of us, now it's just me, and that makes me very happy.
Last year after leaving college and a couple of suicide attempts that I couldn't control, I was admitted to a psychiatric clinic. There a psychologist who was treating me showed me that I had a "fragmented" personality, however paradoxically he never told me what I should do or helped me with it (it was a collective of psychiatrists and he, and when they saw that I was more cheerful and less depressive, they discharged me.) Then after that there was a very bad time that increase the problem. By the end of the year we were already three completely independent people in my head (Eduardo, Lorena and Kevin). So I went to see a psychiatrist and she told me that was DID... but she did not have the necessary knowledge and the psychologist that could treat me was on vacation until January
When the year 2022 began, I decided to take action on my own, and document myself. We stop calling in plural, stop dissociating some behaviors and assume the things I did and felt... accept things like "Maybe I like men" or "Maybe I want to be a woman" or "Yes, I'm depressed, it's normal." I still have a lot of mood swings, but I no longer have blank spaces in my memory, and when I think about something there are no longer 3 opinions in my head.
I am proud to be one person again and to be in control of my actions within what is possible. Now I can work on the trauma that caused all of that in the first place.
Now I know I have a very big problem with my sexuality and I can focus on that. I start college again in April and the psychologist told me he would help me be more stable by then. For the first time in my life, I feel hopeful that things can get better :)
Good day for everyone.
