I did it! I did it! I bought SN all on my own!

[Cupcake]

I know this probably isn't aa big deal to most of you, but for me, it's HUGE! I have such a difficult time shopping online, or doing much of anything without help from someone else, for that matter, because of my blindness. But I did it! I bought it all on my own!!

Granted, I had to call the accessibility line on Amazon to get some help, so I guess it wasn't ALL on my own, but pretty close to it.

I ordered Loud Wolf Sodium Nitrite, four ounces, 99 point 6 percent purity. It's supposed to arrive around November fourteenth, but could be as late as the eighteenth.

I'm so EXCITED! I know I sound crazy, being excited over a suicide method, but I've so badly wanted, no, NEEDED, to have a method on hand in case the right time comes.

I've never, EVER been this close, actually having a viable method in reach at home. I've fantasized about it, even dreamed of it, but I always thought I shouldw ait to make sure I'm absolutely sure I want to go through with it.

Well, I'm not sure when, exactly, I'm going to do it, or if I'll ever do it, but just the knowledge that I have a method on hand is so liberating! I feel happier than I've felt in, oh GOD, I can't even tell you!!!

I do have one concern, but maybe you all can help me with this one. When do you think this SN will expire? I can't read the expiration on the box because my eyesight is stoo poor and, naturally, I can't nonchalantly ask when it expires, so what do you think? How long will it last if I keep it sealed up in its bottle?
Oh, I feel like dancing! I'm off for some ice cream cake now! The Oreo Blizzard Derry Queen kind with the rich, gooey oreo and fudge crust in it. Do you guys know what I'm talking about?

Now, the last hurtle is getting to the mailbox before my partner does. I'm not quite sure what I'll him if he sees it. I'm a little, what you might call eccentric, so I was thinking of telling him I was using it for rituals. He might buy it. If not, I guess I can buy it again.

Do you think the package from Amazon will be obvious? Like, do you think the mailman will have an idea of what's in there? God, I sure hope not.

But I'm not going to let doubts and unnecessary questions dampen my spirit. It's off to ice crema cake land now! Wish you all were here to have some with me. We could light black death candles and close our eyes and make peaceful death wishes. Wouldn't that be fun?

Well, bye for now! I love all you guys!

 

[Stan]

Do you think the package from Amazon will be obvious? Like, do you think the mailman will have an idea of what's in there? God, I sure hope not.

There will be no indication of what is inside the package. It will last a minimum of 3 years if you store it in a drawer or cupboard somewhere. Just don't open it till you need it.

Congratulations!

 

[woxihuanni]

Congrats! Most of us feel happy and liberated when we order and receive our SN and AE.

Enjoy your desert and thank you for wanting to share it with us!

 

[Daniela]

Dear threadstarter, may I ask where are you from, and, if it's ok, where did you purchase your SN from?
Best wishes

 

[Cupcake]

Dear threadstarter, may I ask where are you from, and, if it's ok, where did you purchase your SN from?
Best wishes

Thank you all for your lovely replies. Now I've got to figure out where to get the anti E's. Oh well, one step at a time.

Daniela, I'm from the U.S. I got my SN from amazon. I bought the loud wolf sodium nitrite in powder form, four ounces.

I wonder how accessible Ebay is with screen readers. That seems to be the most common place store for buying anti E's, according to a lot of members on here.

Well anyway, thanks for giving me such a special place to share my victory. And yes, I thoroughly enjoyed my dessert. Feel a little nauseous, though, so I guess I celebrated a little too heartily, lol.

 

[CrushedHopes]

That's fantastic news! There's your exit method for whenever you need to release yourself of the pains of the mortal realm.