I decided to fight longer

[AS.star]

I decided to fight with my mental and physical illnesses longer. I have to get my shit together, even tho I can't find my peace in living.
Life is strange and brings lots of pain but maybe bearing little longer will be worth it?
Like hell, I don't sleep cause of insomnia, so I can't skip the critical days with sleeping, but fuck it I'm fighting guys
fuck mental illnesses, fuck the system and fuck everyone who wants us to suffer more

Maybe I'll make a discord server for the ones who struggles to occupy themselves when the suicide thoughts are making us cry and stare at the wall for hours?
Is anyone interested? I have some games on my laptop, I don't play them much tho, I'm too depressed to do anything. But maybe if we all try, it will get a little bit better? I'd even make a vent chat, where we can just dump our thoughts to us and seek some support
what do you all think?
anyone interested please let me know, I send hugs to all of you, we're stronger than we think <33

edit: I'm making the discord server right now
I'll update this post when I finish it

 

[dalemar]

I wish you all the best!

 

[idk i forgot xx]

I think that's a good idea, I second it! Fuck it all to hell!

 

[NutOrat]

Hell yeah! I don't know if we can ever fully defeat them, but I refuse to go down without a fight! I wish you luck, and may it bring good things down the line. Courage!

Btw, I'm not sure what Madoka is holding on your pfp, I can't see your profile page to view the higher res version, but every time I see it it looks to me like a claymore or something. The imagery of action figure Madoka with her head-empty-smile, holding a claymore in the blood elf combat pose while saying "I decided to fight longer" is certainly a mood

P.S. I know someone else on SaSu already made a separate Discord server for recovery, so you might look into that. I can't provide any links here, but I think it's fine in DMs.

 

[AS.star]

Btw, I'm not sure what Madoka is holding on your pfp, I can't see your profile page to view the higher res version, but every time I see it it looks to me like a claymore or something. The imagery of action figure Madoka with her head-empty-smile, holding a claymore in the blood elf combat pose while saying "I decided to fight longer" is certainly a mood

She's holding a blunt hahaha

 

[NutOrat]

She's holding a blunt hahaha

Even better! I always preferred... blunt weapons over sharp ones

 

[BillyBob]

When you create a discord server, just be careful what is said as there will be some bad actor somewhere and they will screenshot posts or dump the server.

Best of luck fighting with your mental health and yeah insomnia is a complete pain in the ass so we understand there :)