I decided my exact CTB go no go date. Where if my life isn't massively better, then I will off myself. It's 10/12/2022.
In short, if I'm still miserable, and it looks like my life isn't going to change. Then on that date I will use the exit bag method or debreather. I haven't found the exact area I want to die yet, and I'm giving myself within a few days after of the date since who knows what could be happening 2 years out and what could hold me up.
Why that date? It's far out enough to have something happen and it's my b-day. I would like to be able to die as I go to sleep and the day ends.
I worry I might chicken out, and if I get lucky I might die from natural causes between
In short, if I'm still miserable, and it looks like my life isn't going to change. Then on that date I will use the exit bag method or debreather. I haven't found the exact area I want to die yet, and I'm giving myself within a few days after of the date since who knows what could be happening 2 years out and what could hold me up.
Why that date? It's far out enough to have something happen and it's my b-day. I would like to be able to die as I go to sleep and the day ends.
I worry I might chicken out, and if I get lucky I might die from natural causes between
