i cry thinking about how much of a failure i am

[Friend_A]

anyone else?

 

[Dizzylady80]

Oh absolutely. When I think about how on track I used to be compared to now it just crushes me. Barely scraping by now, can't even afford rent

 

[J113632]

Yeah. I'm always aware that I'll never be someone my family can be proud of. All the people I've let down and how I've fucked up just about every single thing in my life big and small. I could never just move on from my failures. They haunt me every day.

 

[k75]

Why do you feel like you're a failure? Do you want to talk about it?

 

[hoping to lose hope]

Eventually you accept it and wait long enough without ctb you wish you could cry again as it became the one joy you had.

 

[Good4Nothing]

If I could cry, I probably would. I did when I was young.

 

[Steamm]

Wish I could cry

 

[Jean Améry]

We are all failures in our own way and I'm not just talking about the people on this forum. Life itself is a guaranteed failure: 'un échec' as Sartre put it. No matter what we do death will wipe it out.

Don't beat yourself up over something that isn't worth it. Find something you're good at and I guarantee you won't fail. Don't try to live up to others' standards: they usually suck and haven't got a clue. Choose your own values and create your own meaning (however small) and you'll be worth more than all of them combined.

Life always involves failure, pain and difficulties. Once you realize this you probably won't care so much anymore. Which is a good thing imo. I hated being oversensitive because I cared too much and felt too deeply. Growing older helps too.

 

[AutoTap]

I don't cry but I get really depressed about it and anxious about my future. Might tear up but idk if I can cry might be something with my meds

 

[Friend_A]

We are all failures in our own way and I'm not just talking about the people on this forum. Life itself is a guaranteed failure: 'un échec' as Sartre put it. No matter what we do death will wipe it out.

Don't beat yourself up over something that isn't worth it. Find something you're good at and I guarantee you won't fail. Don't try to live up to others' standards: they usually suck and haven't got a clue. Choose your own values and create your own meaning (however small) and you'll be worth more than all of them combined.

Life always involves failure, pain and difficulties. Once you realize this you probably won't care so much anymore. Which is a good thing imo. I hated being oversensitive because I cared too much and felt too deeply. Growing older helps too.

i already have things i am good at but it all dont matter. thanks anw

 

[greebo6]

Yes , I do that . I do it a lot sadly .

 

[foxdie]

Yeah I cry about that and too many other things. And for those wishing you could cry, be careful what you wish for lol. I'm so sick of my face leaking all the time. It's not tear drops like in the movies, just wet blurry eyes. I think I get dehydrated from it which brings on headaches. But I might just be weak lol

 

[lobster salad]

Me too. I've been crying myself to sleep for weeks. I just did it just now too until I gave up moments ago and started using my phone. Somehow I feel as if i'm the worst kind of failure in the world because I am the cause of the problems then I complain and get tired of my problems and everything. If only I wasn't who I am. If it gets too bad some nights I seriously just need to make a little scratch or slice on my arm to feel emotionally good enough to sleep.. if I don't I'll be up till 5 in the morning
Massive hugs to you, Friend_A

 

[Cursed4ever]

Hi Fi Mate
Same Here
Virtual Hugs

 

[Wraith]

If I think about how much of a failure I am while I've been drinking, I'll sometimes cry. I don't care all too much about society's definition of success, but I do wish I could be more for my family.

 

[Lordsudbury]

Beginning of the year I had literally everything going for me, the highest my life has ever been. Fast forward and now I'm here. Job, girl, self worth, career, money, financial intuition, forward path, optimism. Everything gone

 

[Coffeandamug]

Yep, same here. Hurts so much and there's nothing I can do about it

 

[grungeCat]

I used to cry a lot in the past but now I'm just emotionless zombie. I'm dying inside yet I don't express it anymore.

 

[Neowise]

I don't cry but I get really depressed about it and anxious about my future.

^This.
I really wished I were someone my parents could be proud of. Someone who has worth in the society. But I am not. I am just me.

 

[Csmith8827]

using the word "failure" or calling yourself a "failure" is in my opinion is really just imposing and impressing other peoples views upon yourself. Only you know what got you to where you are today. Alot of times it's not even our fault. If you're unhappy or unsatisfied or don't view your life as successful....i don't even know what to say. I'm in a crappy situation and I don't see a way out. It's really crappy. Like totally crappy. But yeah...it just sucks to be basically cheated and lied to about everything etc. I don't really try to live up to other peoples expectations and or standards. It's alot easier if you live on your own. Like when i lived in a different state than my parents or I wasn't at home I felt alot more free and i guess happy. Just not having to deal with their opinions about stuff or have them involved in my life helped out alot. But i believe what I needed was love and i was numbing emotions with alcohol or alcohol numbed my emotions rather and sorta spinning out of control (all that BLM RIOT BS got me into trouble) so i dunno. Just living for myself helped out alot. I know that's selfish but that's kinda the truth. who the hell says we have to live for anyone else or to try to impress someone anyway? I know they say "live for God" and all that crap but 99.9% of the time that's bs and from a bs angle/perspective. It's all difficult to judge honestly. I know this is all over the place and for that I am sorry. I'm just in a bad situation and I'm kinda waiting for Neo or Morpheus to come to my rescue and show me my magic exit out of all of this...

love is deep though, like we all need to feel genuinely loved and cared for. That's when i cried...at least one of the times. I felt it and or some sort of feeling of it and thought about how i was behaving and just throwing myself away and yea...

 

[drnhng]

i hate myself

 

[Ghost2211]

I do too. I should have been able to provide for my kids better. They got someone with poor health and no real social support. I'm so sorry to them, and that I can't be the provider I wish I could be.

 

[Arthaniel]

anyone else?

Me to...

 

[PapaSuicide]

I lost everything I had, my wife, my dogs and my home. I also lost my freedom and my financial independence. I'm a shit!

 

[Mongo]

I used to cry for myself.
'I guess I am past self-pity. i now hold myself in the same contempt that all others do.
Less tears, and those with issues over me can at least find that I am in complete agreement.
'Surrender makes life easier, at least in the short term.

 

[awfullife]

When the outlook gets so bleak, the crying becomes less and the planning for CTB becomes primary focus.

I feel like crying is dealing with / processing the suck. At some point this becomes pointless as the suck is everywhere and not going away.

This is how fathers like me who 5 years ago were their kids soccer coach are planning to CTB now. Thanks divorce court.

 

[Lotus]

I do that as well. I feel so worthless and unlovable. Whenever I'm trying I get pushed down again, even lower than I was at first, and everything is feeling so hopeless. When I try to connect with someone I feel like the person can't like a person like me, and whenever they cancel on me I kinda feel like I'm right. I'm in a really bad place right now, and it takes so little to make me cry and feel awful about myself.