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heavysoul

don’t want to die, don’t want to live
Feb 5, 2025
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Does anyone relate that it feels like the only way you could see yourself living is if your life was perfect? Living your ideal lifestyle with access to all your favorite things whenever you want them? Like a heaven or utopia. But it's just completely unrealistic and life can only exist with good and bad. It's just, the extent to how bad the bad feels overpowers the potential of having occasional good.

It makes me feel so weak because most people accept that life has good and bad and push through the bad. But I just feel like I can't do it. I don't know why I'm different in that way, I just am.
 
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sadalways

My birth was an error
Sep 5, 2024
281
I really understand this. If i had access to everything i want and the world was perfect, i would be happy. Or at least so i think. Now i have to work towards everything, it's so exhausting and i don't have the energy nor the motivation to do it anymore.
 
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particularrodent

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Jan 4, 2025
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hits perfectly in my autism tbh. i cant filter or balance or, to be quite honest, act like a damn adult like allistics can, and i never will
 
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Pseudo_existence

Professional bedrotter
Mar 1, 2025
5
God this is what I daydream about all the time. "If only I looked like __, or was just as wealthy and successful as __ or just as confident and talented as __". To go a step further sometimes I like to daydream what it would be like if I had supernatural abilities like the ability to manipulate time or read minds and just like to imagine the endless possibilities those would create. Scout's honor that I would mostly use those powers for good lmao.
 

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