Venting I could have everything in the world and still want to kill myself

[Soapie]

This truly is just how my brain is wired. I'm unfixably, inconsolably, unhappy. Nothing will make my head right. Not love or riches or anything. No matter how much I grow or change, the universal truth is that I'm just going to sit in my room starving and cutting myself, going to work, and then go back to my room to starve and cut myself. Killing myself is inevitable but I'm too scared to do it. Oh well!!!

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand. For me, there is absolutely nothing that would make me want to stay alive. It has never felt right me being alive. I just dislike everything about living. Life is just a pointless unnecessary thing. I was perfectly fine not existing before I was forced to live. All I want is to be free from this world. Suicide is also inevitable for me. I'm sorry you are suffering. I hope you find the peace you are looking for. I also feel scared in a way to do it, but it is not easy as we are programmed to survive.

 

[Hotsackage]

When your mind has been traumatized this is what happens

 

[Soapie]

When your mind has been traumatized this is what happens

It's so weird cause I don't feel like I've gone through anything that terrible, but how else would I end up like this? Maybe my brain is just weird

 

[rationaltake]

Nothing would alter my decision to end my life. I will never accept certain inalterable things and therefore do not accept life.

 

[Zzzzz]

I think there are some legitimate reasons why someone would feel that way. even with power, money and fame. No one can escape death and decay. Life is a constant battle against entropy where everyone eventually loses.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Killing myself is inevitable but I'm too scared to do it.

Agreed. SI may be temporarily inhibiting me, but I see life as a significant negative--far more pain than it's worth. This only gets worse as I get older. And as we both know, despite the Polly-Anna beliefs to the contrary, success chances go downhill with age. In the end, we all die. Might as well go on our own terms.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I think there are some legitimate reasons why someone would feel that way. even with power, money and fame. No one can escape death and decay. Life is a constant battle against entropy where everyone eventually loses.

i want to escape decay (old age) and the way is my Death. Death is not something i dread or fear but the solution to all problems the need for food, aging , pain diseases , problems ,evil, work etc. . Yeah even a billion dollars won't stop you from becoming an old , wrinkled, half demented "human" as if there were a difference between humans and other animals :

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

the solution to all problems the need for food, aging , pain diseases , problems ,evil, work etc. . Yeah even a billion dollars won't stop you from becoming an old , wrinkled, half demented "human" as if there were a difference between humans and other animals

THIS! Love it!

 

[Crimsonghost3]

I always told people it was good I wasn't rich famous or even popular because if I was I'd end up dead from drugs. Money was never gonna fix me only allow me access to ctb how I always wanted to. I took one last vacation with my ex and tried so hard to enjoy it I even ended up telling her how hard it was to keep myself together because all I wanted to do was die. She gave me a lot I needed and still it wasn't enough to stop anything. I've known for so long that I wasn't meant to exist that I've also known nothing I could ever get will change that