I choose peace.

[leavingsoon99]

Recently, I took up a job at an office. It's pretty good pay, and I needed something to do. I really wanted to like it. I really wanted to like the people I work with. It seemed like a good place to run out the clock doing something I love doing. However, there was no clear guidance. The boss hired all of his buddies. My immediate supervisor isn't very helpful. So, I just did what I knew. Well, all of a sudden, there are strict deadlines, and I apparently did everything wrong. Mind you, no clear guidance was given on what they wanted. The boss goes out of his way to openly criticize me. The old me would've gotten down about this. Not now.

Today, I sighed and left. Today was a good reminder why I'm doing what I'm doing. Among the many reasons I'm going to kill myself, human interactions are something I just will not miss. I mean, sure, I'd love TRUE friendships. I'd like a romantic relationship. However, in my experience, humans are just herd animals who beat up each other for imagined status and dopamine hits. I'm over that. After work, I turned in my laptop, went to Hooters, and had some buffalo wings. I'm so over life. The thing we have to do to exist in a reality we didn't ask to be in. It's sadistic and crazy.

I don't know why people are the way they are, and at this point I don't care either. All I know is those wings were soooo goood!!! If I die tonight, I'd be a happy man. Tomorrow is going to be a good day, and I'm one day closer to leaving. Life's worries just aren't worth it anymore.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you would feel so relieved at the thought of being gone. I just think humans are the worst species in general, being around them certainly can be so tiring but even worse they can very easily create even more problems and suffering.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Recently, I took up a job at an office. It's pretty good pay, and I needed something to do. I really wanted to like it. I really wanted to like the people I work with. It seemed like a good place to run out the clock doing something I love doing. However, there was no clear guidance. The boss hired all of his buddies. My immediate supervisor isn't very helpful. So, I just did what I knew. Well, all of a sudden, there are strict deadlines, and I apparently did everything wrong. Mind you, no clear guidance was given on what they wanted. The boss goes out of his way to openly criticize me. The old me would've gotten down about this. Not now.

Today, I sighed and left. Today was a good reminder why I'm doing what I'm doing. Among the many reasons I'm going to kill myself, human interactions are something I just will not miss. I mean, sure, I'd love TRUE friendships. I'd like a romantic relationship. However, in my experience, humans are just herd animals who beat up each other for imagined status and dopamine hits. I'm over that. After work, I turned in my laptop, went to Hooters, and had some buffalo wings. I'm so over life. The thing we have to do to exist in a reality we didn't ask to be in. It's sadistic and crazy.

I don't know why people are the way they are, and at this point I don't care either. All I know is those wings were soooo goood!!! If I die tonight, I'd be a happy man. Tomorrow is going to be a good day, and I'm one day closer to leaving. Life's worries just aren't worth it anymore.

Peace is good and it really sounds to me like you've found it within yourself. I'm glad for you, but, to be truthful, a bit envious, as well. No worries, though, as I'll get to mine too someday, just as soon as is practicably possible. Wish I could eat those wings, too (endocrine disorder). Nothing like a good meal with a good view.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

Im sorry life has led you to this point, it has led me to this point too