gonetoolate
Member
- May 10, 2022
- 6
This was 2.5 months ago at an attempt for help. I was there for 2 weeks being given risperidone which I took for 30 days and a referral to a clinic that was supposed to help with a psychiatrist. It's been 2.5 months and I still have not been linked with a psychiatrist and also have no way of refilling the medication. It didn't work for me anyway but that's not the point. I hate that I went through all of that just for in the end to still be stuck suffering with no help. There was no point. I've tried psychedelics (shrooms and 5meodmt) hoping I'd get some reset butt literally all my attempts did was make me hyper aware that this life is not meant for me. I do not belong here. Humans are cruel, violent, hateful and sad. I cannot find peace even around my friends and family anymore. I don't fit. I find myself isolating more and more and crying all of the time in literal pain at the state of society. I just want to go and be at peace. Why is it so hard? Why do they want to keep us here suffering to make themselves feel better?